What happen to me, i'm 21, a model, never had best friend, never had boyfriend?I'm not naughty?

[bubbly]

since i was in school, i never had a friend. no boys ever interested with me
i was so alone
i knew how it feels had luch alone
i ever found myself, never talk to anyone for 3 days. and when i came back home after school, the house was totaly empty. i have no sister or brother. my father was died, and my mom should work all day for us.
i was so ugly.
i had low self esteem. and i was so weak, once i felt alone, most of my study got bad score.
i'm afraid to met people, but i had to do it everyday in school
there was a group of boys that bullied me. and the girls left me because they thought i'm not popular.
i get bullied with the boys yet the girls.

my life was so dark.
i'm so despreated, i ever went to a psychiatrist and took some pills

my social life was really-really poor.

until i went to university. the environtment was different, the friends was more friendly. but this is not the end. finally i found boys who chased me. but, actually they just played with me, left me hanging, and let me in suffer.
i got me into lower self esteem.
i'm type a girl that wasnt naughty or chased the boy first. no. totaly no.

people said, i got more beautiful. i became petit photo model in magazine, and entertaiment. i tried this one, to make sure to my self that i'm precious too, just like other girls, to build my confident,

but it didn't mean i'm free. i still havent found a man. clearly, never had boyfriend whole my life.
it's hard to fix my low self esteem
and again and again , they usually never contact me after met, or not serious after 3x of dating.
i really made conclusion that i'm not interested. i'm not good with people. i got sick, headache, and my health get worse.
my mom, the only people that i believe in this world, she dissapointed me recently. i lost my faith to my mom and God.
Do satan works in me? made this situation?
i prayed to God everynight, but i found nothing.
it's been 21 years, and so confused.
it's hard to see all my friend was in realtionship, get loved from many people.
it's totaly hard. it's been longtime i never checked my facebook. i said because i prefer twitter, but actually, i always broken when i see it. friends engaged, the not-serious boys was in realtionship with other girl, no comment in my photo, no post in my wall, it's hurt.
there was a long time i avoid this site with many reasons
i'm totaly poor in social relationship, i'm so ashamed because of this
it's hard to build my self esteem, help me!!

[Adam]

WHAT THE your life is my life I am a 21 year old guy and I was bullied by girls and boys. I ve got horro stories.
You and me must talk to each other. I am so loney.
I went about 4 years without talking to any girl here since highschool. To find myself talking to a girl at a fair, I mess up. I've got no self esteem. It been a month since I talk to a girl in person

I talk to no one after work, I'm so loney too.

I re read this so many times, is this real, your life is just like my. Want to to talk by way of twiter, no one follows me. The girl at the fair I meet, we talk on twiter after but when I told her, I want to talk for hours, and I am so loney, well she ban me on twiter.

I been looking at this question you posted for an hour. please add me on twiter adam31415926535 follo me Il follow you, we need to talk.

[Nice Friend]

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