How to overcome love failure ? Shall I Suicide ?

[Raghavendra]

Hello, everyone! I Am Rag from Bangalore .

10 years ago. during 9th Std, I Saw a girl in our School Bus, “The moment I saw her, I felt as if i have met her in my pre-birth life & was too astonished to speak .One day She became my friend, and Later on, I was attracted & Mesmerized by her pleasant, jovial, friendly and caring attitude, Without my Conscious I started dwelling on her memories thru out my life,


About that Girl : I Don't Want To Mention the 'NAME' of that girl, Basically, She is verry hardworking & fun loving jovial social person . She doesn't have/had any love feelings for me from long back then,
She treated me like a friend and she was NEVER interested in Love Stuff with me or with anyone
She always used to equip herself in Dance and Now she is a famous professional Dancer .Infact I don't know whether she remembers me or not After this 10 years of Separation .


About Me : I am a reserved person, got major health issues & I don't have many friends in real world, Ever Since this 10 years of Separation, I've been living with her each & everyday with her memories in my fantasy world Like a Psycho And I wouldn't blame her for this and I Certainly
Blame my Weak Heart for all this emotional pain ( Feeling of grief ,Lonely, & despair)

Problem Started : After this 10 years of Departation, Recently I saw her on Bus Stop Chit-chatting with one random guy that Made me cry like hell thru out the day & I wish i would've never been in that terrible situation ever again and When I saw her present face in the facebook profile, That Made me somewhat Sorrow and Cry! as a result, I Blocked her facebook profile & deleted my profile to avoid such terrible emotional feelings.


My Family : I Can't Share this with My Parents & I had a talk with my Elder sister, She has a lot of concern over me, But When I Share this with her, She listens to me, Advices me but, then, When I say the same things again and again to reveal my emotional pain & Stress, She tells, "I know that and is not ready to listen again and again, that disappoints & worries me a lot. I wish she understands 'Misery loves company' and helps me with much more Enthusiasm by being curiositically Hearing hear for my problem with much more patience.

Right Now : Presently, I Can't Digest this feeling of Emotional pain, Sorrow and feel like 'life is over' what is the point and the desire to end it all. I just Can't Concentrate on my daily tasks in this dull fantasy mind . I Feel like hating myself & killing myself Just for the heck of it.I cant control my tears. I Repent for falling in this God Damn 'Love' .This Love failure is the most hurting experience ever i had in my heart and i just wish it just vanishes like fever, Jesus!.


HELP : I feel like committing suicide? i've been feeling really depressed. Someone please help me to overcome this situation . I am entirely new to this and i just cant digest/ bear it.

[Owndapwn]

You're bluffing.
Go stand on the ledge of a building.
You'll know I'm right.

[Ryan]

Whatever you do, do not commit suicide! There is a hope out there, someone wanting to give you a second chance. His name is Jesus. Go get some help. Someone you trust, a neighbor, friend, or someone from church. You need to know while everyone may have given up on you, Jesus has not.

[Runescape Lulz]

You are weak. Do you want to be weak?
What you need to be is rejected or accepted. If you don't go tell her about your 10 year old problem then the chains that restrict you will become heavier. Go tell her. It may be the biggest challenge of your entire life, but if you want to keep on living as these things cause you suicidal thoughts, you will have to. Be a man and do it. Even if you get rejected, the heavy chains will come off and you will feel free. However, you will be very hurt, but that pain will heal throughout time, and its way better than feeling the depression that you are right now. Will you run from this like a pussy by commiting suicide? Or will you solve this problem and live a happy continued life?

[Ragu]

Your extreme sadness is seen in your words. I wish to tell you that you can not make someone love you but what you can do is be someone who can be loved. So, your problem is self created one without her involvement, hence it is you to come out of your illusion and see the reality. A wound can be cured but not an emotional hurt, so your emotional pain will take some time to cure as you feel self pity and low self esteem which force you to take extreme steps to get relief from the pain. But remember one thing emotions belong to our soul not to our body, so even if you get out of this life forcibly your pain won't go. Hence forget this suicide attitude. Divert your liking by increasing your choices. Your emotional need is more than the resources, so increase your resources and for that you should be prepared and seek for the opportunities.Get counselling to overcome your self pity feeling. Good Luck and God Bless you.