How should I reply to my online friend?

[Leah]

I have a friend online and we have been having fun interacting on a site for a long time. We're very close and we also know each other in real (through facebook and twitter) we have mutual friends and all of them are like bestfriends to me. (Actually, I was their newest friend.) However, something happened... and this friend of mine... started to post things (twitter) that I think was meant for me... I have no idea what happened or what is wrong but when I asked her what's the problem she kept on avoiding it and tells me she's fine and it's nothing.

However, I am not numb, nor blind to know that nothing is wrong. I can feel it, but I just kept quiet and stopped asking her. One of our mutual friends (this is her bestfriend.) started talking to me, like we normally do. When I asked her about our friend...she became quite evasive about it but when I told her bluntly that...

"I know there's something wrong but you won't tell me about it."

She asked me why I was so affected. (as if she's trying to catch me if I'm guilty about something i do not know!)

From then on I stopped from communicating with the two of them. I became inactive on the site even on my facebook account and on twitter. Because I can feel that they are talking about me. I can see it on their posts and how secretive they are becoming. (I tend to overthink about things but I always follow my instincts and most of the time it's right)

If I have done something wrong. I wish they would tell me, because I really don't know what I did or what they found out from other people... I did my best to talk with them but the way they try to avoid the topic and tell me that it's okay & it's nothing, honestly irks me.

I asked my friend in real what to do and she told me that I just have to let it go. Just be my normal self online. If I know that I have done nothing wrong I shouldn't worry. and IF I DID something, that hurt one of my online friends, my friend in real told me that I wouldn't do it or I wouldn't say something bad unless I was HURT and I was greatly affected.

So for almost two months I didn't talk to my online friend. It was easy because she won't communicate with me either. I continued interacting with her bestfriend (our mutual friend) but it was tamed, unlike before.

It has been like that ever since.

And then now, I received a message from my online friend on facebook. This is the first time that she approached me.

I still haven't read her whole message. I don't want to open it, because I still do not know what to do, and how to reply, but I saw the first part and she said that she misses talking with me and I should take care (I have a cold. I think she found it out from our friends and she can actually see all my posts online since we stay on the same site)

How should I reply to her? Should I reply to her with the same enthusiasm and energy like I normally do? but wouldn't that make her think that I'm two faced person? Because I feel that she thinks that I said something bad about her and then if I reply to her that way...then ....

but if I won't reply to her, or if my message is too short and too impersonal like a short thank you. She will think that there is something wrong, and my other friends will know about it and they will start talking about me again and maybe make assumptions... blah blah blah.

I really don't know what to do. But there is one think that I am sure about.

I am hurt by the posts that I saw from her, (even if they say that its not for me. I just know it.) and the feeling I had before when I know that they are talking about me....and when I think our mutual friends are seeing me as someone who is really bad because I have hurt her ( I HAVE NO IDEA WHY WHAT AND HOW! AND THEY WON'T TELL ME!) I don't think I can trust my online friend anymore, and I could get back on talking with them like before. I am cautious even when i talk to her bestfriend.

How should I reply to her? Please help me.

Overthinking kills.

[Smilingwheel971]

read the whole message first then if you say on this what she said it will be easier to answer your question