how can i believe in myself when no one else does?

[cc]

When you rely on others to give direction and meaning to your life, you will be disappointed.

When you rely on yourself to give direction and meaning to your life, you will have no one else to blame if you are disappointed. And the others become irrelevant.

Your choice.

[Patrick]

Well you could always try getting a GED, and you could always try going to votech and learning a trade. Dreams are good, but you need to get your feet under you before you start worrying about pursuing other interests...