Im so depressed its killing me !?

[Alexandra]

ive been depressed & annxious my whole life. but these last four years was the worst. ive been smoking & drinking to get rid of my feelings instead of cutting . but recently i tryed to commit suicide & my sister stopped me . 2012 was the worst . i dont wanna go to school, i dont want to go outside anymore , ive been MIA on people , i want to be alone , i shut myself out of facebook & my mom neglects & mentally abuses me . i dont want to wake up anymore , i sleep more sometimez and other times i wont sleep at all. i want to be in the dark alll the time , & i wont get up to go pee and ill hold it in all day , i skip eating allthe time . i wAs diagnosed with anorexia & bullimia nervosa 4 years ago when i was 10 and i was suicidal and i was a cutter . this year and lastyear i missed so much days of school because i was to emotionally unwell & i wouldnt get out of bed . my mother never gets me help all she doze is blame it on me and yell and scream at me . ( she has been depressed for over 20 years & has bipolar disorder) we been thru 6 different therapy programs and they all failed. cps use fo come around all the time & all my mom does is threAten for me to lie to them. i honestly dont respect my mother that i call her ms.vanessa instead of mom. its been that way for a while . im failing school & i just look so sick. idk what else to do ? should i move to a charter school so i wouldnt face the anxiety being around people ? idk whatz happening . i use to be populer and now i cant face seeing my friends or peers antmore . am i crazy ?

[Chris]

I don't get how you're that depressed, you need to get over your past and move on, tell your mom to fuck off and just go to school and socialize. It's not hard

[Bookman80]

For once somebody listen to me! Take 2 pills of St. John's Wort (300mg) and 1 B12 vitamin (1000 mg) twice daily at morning and at night. Within 14 days you'll go from the depths of gloom to feeling hopeful, balanced and secure. I swear this works for both depression and anxiety better than most prescription drugs. I use it and have for years! It's cheap, over the counter, and it works!

[Ryan]

It's a process. Being content with being alone is okay, but in my ammeter opinion it doesn't sound like you are. Go out, and see the world. Meet people, talk to your friends. Stay away from drugs and alcohol and self hurting, as it will only hamper you here.

Find a figure in your life you can respect, if your mother isn't stable. A teacher or something.

You're not crazy, just in need of love. Smile. oh and eat stuff too. I have faith in you, because there is hope. More than you can see. I'm praying for you,

[Chistopher]

You just need to move on, and keep you head up! life is too short, and it is not worth killing your self! you need to go see a psychologist so you can sit down and talk to a professional who knows what you can do to help you get out of your rut! here is a good song that you can relate to:

Peter Gabriel: " Don't Give Up"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiCRZLr9oRw