My girlfriend left me, and I dont know what to do?

[Ryan]

Ok, time to face all the facts, i lie on here sometimes, though its really all an exaggeration of how i feel sometimes, on this account i only have two, both lies, this is REAL!

My loved one just now left me for a girl so she can become a lesbo, i have nothing against homosexuals, ok. Thing with that is we got promised recently (not steady, just we were making plans on engagement and marriage) and she did this. She and my only friend are the ones I wouldnt lie to ever. She was the only person I ever cared about. I also lost my only friend to her also. I have no one to talk to about any of this, not even my parents (yes i am in high school, dont judge me). I was always the picked on kid, all because I have red hair and freckles. I dyed it, and faded the freckles, but my problem still stands. I have social anxiety and I can not talk to new people with out these really embarrassing twitches. I am still myself, and I am emo, real emos dont cut them selves thats just a stereotype. I also still am not like any other guy, or anyone at the school for that matter, I am not a pervert what so ever. I am just more of a loving and wants just something that will last, even in friends. I have nothing among my 27 friends on facebook, and the second most least popular person has 2000. Nothing good has ever really happened to me, I honestly wouldn't know what joy feels like. The way most people treat others seems harsh to me.

My father is dead, I watched him die, I was little, he was holding me with all his strength after healing as much as he could from a "vegetable" state and died. My mother was depressed for years and so was I but I couldn't show it, my mother had no job, I barely survived. Now, I have a stepdad, he molest my mom in public, he cheats, and hes probably the rudest, meanest and he hates me. He has hit me before.

I will admit one last thing, I have attempted suicide, at least 10 times. I am strongly considering doing it later today, in fact I probably am.

All I want in life is her. I NEED her... Dont turn me away from it, I will NEVER date anyone else or anything. She is my life. I was demoted to her best friend so I can still easily talk to her. This is all I want, her, thats what I need to know, how to get her back. I know that shes on her time of month again, and this isnt the first time. Just the first time shes like this. It somehow effects her a lot more than normal girls.

If you are still reading this thanks for listening to my life, none of this is over-exaggerated, if anything its under-exaggerated. I feel alone, and even though I am a guy I have secretly been crying myself to sleep. If you respond to this i give you my deepest respect and trust, if i have any left. Again Thank you,
-Ryan

[Zoe]

okay first of all.. i dont want to sound rude at all but commiting suiside is the last wy your going to wind this girl back..so dont even consider it, second im pretty much in the same boat my boyfrend left me and ended up with a new girl two weeks later, i actually know exactly how you feel (about the relationship and being alone part) so here what you do darling, and what ive been advised to do... do absolutely nothing, i know it sounds completely retarded and wrong but shes gonna expect you to come crawling back begging foreher and when you dont shes gonna assume your okay with it, shes gonna think wow he really dosent care anymore, and its gonna start her thinking more and more about you.. she might be (and my ex too) with that other girl for now but really if you were that serious that you were promised to eachother this other girl is most likely just a rebound.. and the relationshp (if there is one) wil hopefully be short lived, but maybe what you need is to get out and try something new, get back to the old you the you she fell inlove with because shes not going to want to come back to a cryng mess, so get up go for a walk.. or run or join a gym even, you cant controle what other people do and this isnt a pormise she will come back but give it a few weeks, maybe even a few months, an take care of YOU dont worry about her and maybe even pretend you moved on and she willl come crawling back.. good luck to you xo - zoe

[ohohbrokenhearted]

Hey wait! Don't do that, okay? Everything happens for a reason. Never ever let your life ends just because she left you. Maybe.. she isn't meant for you. Please. Some people would give up everything just to live, and you, you're going to waste a precious life. Oh my god. I know its hard, but you're a guy. You're a man. You're better than that, okay? You should ask for a guidance or prayer to God. You shouldn't hate the world, you know? I know I'd tried to commit suicide too. But I realized that it would be so meaningless because suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You have so much to look forward to in life. There's so many girls out there who can love you more than she love you. I'm a lesbo. Okay? Stay strong.