I'm depressed, need something to make sense in my life?

[Alex]

I'm 20 male, currently in college. My depression started last year in January when the girl i loved said she didn't wanted to be with me. It was still new and very rarely i felt it but then i met another girl and we were together for a few weeks and then she broke up with me but we remained friends but then in a few months she started blowing me off at Facebook and she said that she's letting go of her phone so "don't text me anymore" (don't know if that was true). The thing is that i really fell for this second girl and it seems that she was just playing me around. After i disconnected from her I spent most of my time in bed watching TV Shows, it was fun and all but it didn't make me any better. Also at the same time all my friends just mysteriously decided that they no longer wanna be my friends.

It got worse in the beginning of this year and around April i tried to commit suicide. I started blowing off my classes. and i barely passed my exams and flunked in one. I told my mom but she didn't give much thought to it finally i had convince her to take me to a psychologist. We were already having so much money problems and then after my third visit i didn't tell her anything when she didn't say anything about going to the psychologist. Then a miracle happened and I started getting better and i started volunteering at this institution it last for 2-3 months and then the program ended. I joined yet another activity soon after in fall that lasted almost 2 months but then that was it. I was so afraid of relapsing but it seemed that i was okay until recently that i started having mood swings again and now for a few days I've been depressed as hell, and an hour ago I was considering suicide and thinking of taking drugs.

God please i need somebody to talk to, i have nobody, no friends, no siblings, no class mates that i can talk to, i need somebody online to help me.

[Reuben]

I really really wish I can help but I really don't know what to how. But what I can tell u is to look on the bright side

[Bob]

Dude, you have a gift. You blew off all your classes and passed most of them. You tried to commit suicide but survived, there's a reason for that. My advice would be to relax on the long term relationships for now. Just hang out with your buds and make new friends. Look at woodysgamertag (you tuber) he tried to commit suicide when he was 15 but now he is a successful man with a loving family. 20 is not old you have a long life ahead of you just don't worry about girls as deeply as you do. Just live and let live.

[Darth Futuza]

Sorry to hear about your plight mate. Don't commit suicide, you won't feel any better after your dead. Also drugs are highly unlikely to help you out, maybe for like a day or two, but then it'll suck even worse. Don't worry, there are good girls out there, you just have to find them. Usually they're the ones with morale standards like honesty, and patience though.

Sounds like your probably not feeling good about yourself, especially with the girl troubles and flunking exams and what not. I've been there too. Trouble with us humans is we all want to feel needed and important. So you need to find a place or group of people that actually depend on you and who feel your important. Work (whether it's paid or not), is actually very valuable because it will fullfill this need. Especially if your motivation for doing that work comes from a particularly good motive like wanting to help others.

Sounds like that that's what the institution did for you. Find something similar and it'll probably help out a lot. There's all sorts of things like that: church, mental health care centers (they usually love it when people volunteer to help them out), YMCA, etc...


That's one of the reasons I involve myself in things like programming games and things, and it seems to work and does me a lot of good. (Plus I get to learn how to program better.)

Also I feel like I wouldn't be honest if I didn't mention that a belief in God really helps me cope with life. I should add, a correct understanding of God helps. A lot of people think of God like a genie who grants wishes, when really he's more like a dad. He cares enough about people to let them have a sucky time occasionally (if that makes sense.) Life isn't necessarily suppose to be all kicks and giggles. Life really is a trial, to see if you're ready for the next life, and we're being tested to see how well we'll perform. Of course that doesn't mean you'll believe me, if you want to find out for yourself you'll have to ask the Big Man himself and maybe do some of your own research.

If you're really serious about figuring out what your purpose in life is read this article: http://www.lds.org/general-conference/20...u?lang=eng

Anyway, hope you feel better mate regardless if you feel my answer was useful.