Am I allowed/Do I deserve to get help for Neglect, How do I get it?

[Zachary]

I am 13. Wait, Before you assume I'm some Child trying to get attention in any way, shape or form. Please let me tell you my back story.
I live in my mother's apartment, It's a two bedroom, 1 bath, Fairly small and cramped, But it wouldn't be bad at all if it was taken care of in the least.
It's an awful mess, Food wrappers, Garbage, Clothes scattered all over the floor, (Almost all of which are my mothers.) stuffed into corners, filling entire closets, under beds, Anywhere you could possibly imagine. I have tried to clean up. I've tried so very, very hard. But she won't let me touch any of it. If I do she gets angry with me. I've done a bit of research on the matter and I found that she shows all of the characteristics of a hoarder. I told her about the subject and the second I brought it up she instantly denied it. She said that the mess "Wasn't that bad." and that she could "Throw it away any time she wanted to." and that it isn't "Garbage" But she has said this for years and she never throws anything away. Every time I bring it up she gets defensive and says she'll do it next time. There are times when I've talked about maybe her getting some help but she always gets really mad, I'd rather not push her.
The house not only is full of her things, It also has many insects, Fleas, Roaches, none of it is taken care of and In no way are these good for Anyone health. I read that they can spread harmful, Sometimes even fatal diseases, Salmonella, Asthma, Allergies, Tapeworms, Just to name a few. I have asthma, allergies and I feel ill all the time. The environment has never and never will feel like a home..It's hard to live with, as is the fact that I don't get fed very well, I hardly get any food and if I do get anything it's simple and small, I don't mind of course because I know that we are poor and can't afford very much but I'm noticing that I'm not as healthy and lively as I should be for my age due to my lack of eating. When I visit other peoples houses they have so much food and I get really hungry and I guess they can tell because they tell me I look hungry and offer me some food, But instead of accepting "no thank you" I don't want to be rude or get yelled at. I feel guilty for eating. Like, it's not a privilege I deserve. I get ignored very often and I suppose it's for my tendency to be annoying, But it's because I have no one else to talk to or to tell things..I don't go outside or to school. I believe things are going to get better. In fact that is the only thing that keeps me going really, The thought that things will change, But despite my happy outlook, I am depressed, broken and Burdened by many things in my past and at the moment, I was raped several times and beaten, bullied, neglected All starting at the age of three, in foster care, I never got any closure for these events. No arrests were made and I can't make them anymore, It's too late and I have no proof. It eats at me every day that those sickos are still out there and they could be doing this to more Children. And my own pain right now eats at me too, I can't seem to get out of the situation I'm in. I don't think I deserve to call Child abuse, There are so many people who have it worst, I have a computer, internet to type this with, I shouldn't be complaining.. But I don't want to die here, I want to have a nice life, be able sleep again and wake up happy that I'm alive and have a family that loves and take's care of me, A real home and a family, I want to have these things, But I don't think I deserve them and I don't know how to get them and I don't want to go back to foster care The last time I went to foster care I was molested, I don't want to go back there.
I'm so broken and tired and I'm only 13 I shouldn't be like this at this age.
I'm so scared for my future and I have this tremendous fear that it won't work out.
I don't have a good education, Being of my own fault because I just couldn't take the bullying and stress anymore, I already had enough stress at home. So how will I get hired by anyone? I don't have anywhere to go.. What are my options in this situation? Do I even deserve to get help being that there are people in so much worst state than I am?
Please don't think I'm a troll or just a stupid Child.

[Charlotte]

WOAHHH!!

[marcus]

Call CPS, if in school go see your school nurse, call a relative and IF there is no one else to call call the POLICE!

[Nem]

Hey honey, I'm really sorry for what you have been through!
All I can think of right now is for you to call the police, or child services. But you will most probably end up in foster care if you do that.

I would love to be able to help you, but I'm not living in the US so I'm not sure what your options are. But I would like to offer you something; if you would like to email me as often as you would like, I can always listen and help with your day-to-day problems. And you never know, we might find out a solution for your situation together.

here's a new email I just got for myself; I don't want to post my real email in case anyone I know reads this. But once you email me, I'll give you my real address so we can talk more often. - nemkiraz@yahoo.com

Before you email me, I'll just tell you a bit about myself so you feel safe talking to me. I'm a girl, I'm 20 and I'm currently studying in university in the UK. But I'm from a different country. I have 2 cats I'm not on facebook or twitter, so you probably can't find me online. But there are a few articles about stuff I did in high school, and actually a competition I won a while ago. So you can google me and make sure I'm real, after I give you my real name via email

Hope you're not just trolling and you are a real person, so that I didn't go through all this trouble for nothing.

I'm really just reaching out with the pure intention of helping and nothing else in mind. Hope you choose to email me soon!

Best of luck in life if you decide not to. Trust in yourself, there are many people who turn out to have wonderful lives coming from unfortunate childhoods! There is always hope honey.