What to do when you feel incredible pain inside?

[Blu]

So I met this guy last year in June 2011. We hit it off fast and became quick friends. He really liked me and I liked him but I didn’t want to be in a relationship yet because I was just getting out of a long, abusive relationship.
Anyways as months went on it frustrated him and he caused a lot of arguments between us over nothing. Eventually, he didn’t say a word to me in November until Christmas where we picked up where we left off.

So it’s FEB 2012 and he told me he “wants his friend back” which I didn’t understand what that meant, he texted that to me randomly. Just the day before he was calling me babe, etc. and then that was the last time we ever spoke. Until I unfollowed him on twitter and he proceeded to call me an “internet hoe”, whatever that means. 2 weeks after that he got back with his x, that he trash talked since the day I met him.
I got over it! Him, her, the entire thing.

Now it’s Jan 2013 and I found out he got his x, well current girlfriend, pregnant and now I feel so hurt. I guess I always felt like maybe we would meet again but now I know we never will.
I keep dreaming about it and it’s killing me inside. I know I sound pathetic. He use to tell me that he wanted to have a baby with me and when I was showing him baby pictures of me he used to say “wow, so that’s what my little girl will look like.”
It just hurts so badly.

[Bethany J]

Since you were getting out of an abusive relationship, you were looking for anyone to take the place of your husband. He never wanted you as a wife, he may have liked you as a friend and as a friend with benefits, too. Understand that you let him use you. Just move on with your life. Make some better decisions or you will repeat this over and over.

[Jason]

You are pathetic. Seriously. Move on, get a hobby, do something.

[Nicole]

Yes, it hurts when someone is moving on. Breaking up is never easy. I would suggest do what you need to do. Watch a Chick movie, eat some ice cream, and cry about it. When you are done crying, move on. You don't want anything to do with a man, or anyone for that matter, who doesn't want you.

[Point]

You guys haven't been in communication for how many months? And you're hurt because he's back with an ex.
You really need to stop dwelling in the past. If he was such a catch he would have waited until you were ready for a relationship. But he didn't. And he talked a lot of crap about you. That right there is not something you should forgive him for.

[Vada]

Why would you feel anything for a person who called you a hoe. He has no respect for you and honey that is verbal abuse. You need to learn how to pick the men you choose to deal with wisely because you seem to nice of a person to continue to get used by men. First things first love yourself and find her person who loves you just as much

[Ali]

Just recall how wonderful it felt knowing that he considered you an Internet ho. I mean how could anyone not melt at the mere thought of it? It makes me weak in the knees thinking how much I would love my sweetie to call me an Internet ho. (Hope a little perspective helps.)