What would happen if I gave up on everything?

[Bobby]

I'm not saying "what if I killed myself/hurt myself?", but I am asking; "What if I gave up on writing my blogs?", "What if I gave up on making Youtube videos?", "What if I gave up on Facebook?", "What if I gave up on Twitter?", "What if I gave up on the things i believed in?", "What if I gave up on texting or using my cell phone?", "What if I gave up on the things I'm passionate about?", "What if I stopped having opinions?", "What if I stopped doing the things I love?", "What if I gave up on my love life?".
I of course don't plan on giving up on ANY of these things, BUT would quitting all of these things elicit some kind of response? You see, I often wonder what would happen if I gave up on everything. Not out of despair, or in a desperate attempt to get attention. There's a nagging feeling in my heart, and in the back of my mind that I should give up these things, just to see what would happen. Now, I'm NOT going to give up on ANY of these things, I'm just wondering what would happen if I did that. I feel like if I gave up my blog that no one reads, I would be surrendering my right to freedom of speech.
Sometimes I think I should give up blogging because no one reads my blogs, sometimes I feel like I should give up my Youtube video making, sometimes I feel like giving up on facebook because no one seems to be interested in talking to me, sometimes I feel like my Tweets unnoticed by I still tweet on Twitter. But NONE OF THIS MATTERS, because I KNOW that as long as I am TRYING to be myself, and TRYING to figure out who I am, and TRYING to make the most of my life, then I will eventually succeed in most of what I do, and some of what I pursue. I will admit that earlier today, I was wondering if my voice was worth being heard. I was wondering if my existence amounted to anything. But then I realized something; I realized that if I DID give up on some, or even ALL of these things, then I would be in accomplice to making MY life miserable. I decided that I was here to stay, and that no one would ever succeed in erasing me in any way, definition, or significant meaning. I guess the more appropriate question to ask is, "Where did the idea of ever giving up come from?". All I know is I have half the answer, and that is I'M TIRED! Sometimes it seems like everything I do sucks the energy out of me. But the question is "Why"? Why am I tired? Why do I feel like everything takes SO much energy? What exactly would cause me to feel like I should give up? Why am I so afraid of criticism? Why do I let criticism get me down? Since when did I start to care what anybody thought about me (in a negative way I mean)?
Like I said, I'm going to keep making Youtube videos even if nobody watches them, I'm going to keep making blogs even if no one reads them, and I'm going to keep doing my thing. I'm here to stay, no matter how sh*tty I am now, or how sh*tty I may become. Get used to it.

[Arthur W]

Then, basically Life wins, although we lose anyway at the end but why hand it to Nature so easily and especially when you have no idea what tomorrow may bring. You just have to learn to quit sweating the small things in life and youll be better off

[mrs. mike]

Hi Bobby,

One of the reasons you're so tired is because your mind is constantly going 90 miles an hour - you never give it a rest. Your mind gets so overloaded with so many thoughts that it's wanting to be "shut off" for a while. It wants to be still and quiet.

When people get that tired, they can't think straight, they can't make good decisions, they can't figure out what to do or not to do, and all the lines become blurred.

Maybe taking a break, just for a few days, from youtube and blogging and all the other things you do isn't a bad idea, Bobby. Give your mind a rest from all those things and spend some time being quiet and still and see what happens. Just spend some time with YOU - the REAL you.

Deb