How to open up to ppl?

[kay_burrr]

I'm 21 & I have always been quiet pretty much all my life. I only talk when spoken 2 when I'm at school. It's just my introvert personality. Ppl complain about me being this way but I just can't help it. Im content in being quiet i rather observe and say things when i want to. this is my biggest flaw that i have I'm really a nice & friendly caring person but ppl at times view my quietness as something negative. I just don't know what the hell to say. I'm like this becuz my education and speech isnt that great and how I grew up. My father wasn't in my life so I don't know how to deal with guys today (I avoid them) & my mom didn't really talk to me growing up..her mother (my grandma) didnt as well. My family has always been judgmental so i always stayed to myself and in my room. It has played a major part in my life today..becuz of my quietness i dont hang out w/ ppl i do know I only talk 2 them on fb, twitter or text sometimes. I'm not a partier I rather be at home drinking with close ppl im comfortable around than to be at a loud bar or something. I wish and pray often that I can just snap out of it and become outgoing like my sister and younger brother but its hard for me. I had a therapist but I had to stop seeing her because I don't have any insurance to cover the sessions anymore. I don't know what else to do. I've applied at tons of jobs so I could boost my confidence and social skills but I never get any calls back bcuz of my lack of experience or poor communication at interviews. Tonight I had cousins come over from out of town and my mom entertained I just sat back and observed and said things at times but mostly I was quiet. And they could tell too. I hate this. I just don't know what to say. I don't have any jokes, stories, or information to offer ppl. Can someone give me any suggestions on how I can Be more open??? I want to beat this. I want friends, family, and a bf for once in my life. What can I do? I hope I explained this right.

[Shane]

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[fatWorlock138]

i think the for you is...gather information about common stuff talked about like fashion,sports,bit of world news also some sort of information about your families and relatives.make sure to get updated time to time about these stuff.(but gather information about stuff that only interests you ).when people are speaking about some of these topics share your opinions also.i am sure when time goes automatically you would join in the conversation.

dear other thing is smile whenever you see a person of any gender and if they smile back at you...hey if its a friendly smile try speaking to them about something like whats your name,where are you from...basic details like after sometime of your meeting with that person.

i think you would do better if you start this trick off with females.hope it works for you.best of luck.