Anything like it happened to you?

[Nconfused]

Sorry in advance for making you read so much..
There is a girl...i have liked her for quite a few yearS now. You could say i've always lacked in self confidence and coupled with HAving slight ocd (look it up if u dont know what it is) it MAde It very hard to ever taLk to Any girls so then you could probly understand why it May have been difficult for me to ever to talk to this girl when i liked her so much which probly made me pretty much invisible in her eyes. I wonder sometimes if i could have just man'd up and talked to her all that time ago then things would be different now...but thats only wishful thinking i guess. There was a time only a couple of years ago when i tried to talk to her and get to know her...but ultimately never succeded. Shortly after that time i just mentioned i left my school(the school we both went to in which i was in some of her classes...should've mentioned before..) and went to college while i think she stayed on at that school. After i started college things were soon forgoten about my old school including this girl and up until a few days ago (a year and a half after i started college) i started having dreams of well..u could gueSs. And since then i have been unable to think of anything else and i mean it. The time i've spent tHinking of her would have to be measured in hours if not days. And some of you tht may respond to this may just say shes not worth it...and to that il just say screw u! i think shes worth every minute that i think of her and though i may b so much in love with her that i cant see her flaws but i swear i just can't see any (any obvious ones anyway) i mean shes beautiful, smart, has a great personality etc and though u might think that anyone can describe a girl like this then your wrong as theres one vital difference....i mean it. And that brings me to this point in time...unable to think properly...i've started working out.. for pretty much the first time ever (*pauses for applause) to get my mind off of her and to raise my self esteem. I just can seem to focus on anything else tho.. i mean i've stArted looking over old school photos and i just see her and just crumble to pieces knowing that i will never get to know her to even becoMe a good friend of hers (which i realised only a few days ago was all i needed) because even if i was just her friend i could appreciAte all her good attributes & have gotten a great friend. Thats all i really want i guess i mean... i saw a message on her twItter page a few days ago (yes i looked at her twitter page, made me feel like part of her like..sad as tht may b) that she retweeted (but still..) saying something along the lines of how "naturally pretty people" annoy her how they can just wake up looking flawless without doing fuck all. When i read that message i could onLy think one thing...how could she think like that when she's naturally beautiful herself..i mean couldn't she see what i could see..i have no doubt tht she puts work into making herslef beautiful but i just wish she knew that even if she had just woken up 5 minutes before she would still look as great as ever. And then theres something that happened today when someone sent her a messAge (anonymously hiding their name) about..well basicly it wasn't pleasant...pissed me off like hell..i'm just glad that she could handle the prick that sent the message and pretty much ripped into them...made Me smile. Though i didn't leave it there i got a few hits in as well ( i sent a message about it too) just to make me feel better and hopefully make her so as well. As for her name..though noone here will probly know here..il keep it confidential..just know its three syllables and begins with an S. Anyway this isn't so much of a question (mostly posted just cos it made me feel better, also i may have been over the top a bit in what i wrote here but that could be due to my OCD and me thinking to much..once i started writing i didnt really stop,hence y its so long) but if people have ever had something like this happen to them before say it so others and most of all me can know we not alone


Also btw if ur gnna answer i'd answer quick cos tommorrow or the next day or the next day etc. i may realise that i dont want this ummm "story" on yahoo answers but right now i couldn't give a fuck..excuse my language and anything i said earlier.
ty for the comments so far...wanna point a few things out tho..firstly adu screw u! secondly i have only wat i wud call slight ocd and tho i do care bout spelling(pretty gud at it) i didnt really care wen i wrote this...also the reason i forgot is that when i started college my life was changing..i lost all connections with people at my old school (tho i do try keep in touch..) and with meeting new people and stuff i just forgot and also the truth is i didnt really want to remember..not cuz i didn't luv her (see dont care for spelling atm) but because the pain it was putting me through...i had jus given up. btw to the people that actually read this thanks for taking the time to do so

[orangebanana]

Ummmmm I'm OCD too. How can you stand your own grammar, and lack of knowledge about how to use capitalization? If you care about her more than sexually then go find her. If not, find some new girl at your own school. If the girl is right for you then you probably wouldn't have even forgotten about her. I personally have done something like what your're talking about. It's with my current boyfriend. We dated a long time ago and I couldn't stop thinking about him. EVER. So we got back together. Now were planning on getting married as soon as possible. If she's worth it then go find her!

[Abu]

Get over the girl already and get yourself together.

[milena oreilly]

If shes on twitter message her asking 2 meet up some time private then confess ur feelings for her tell her that ur betta then any other guy and ur her perfect match u obviusly sound like ur in love with her becuse u think abut all day this has never happened 2 me but try to suck it up and just tell her if u r 2 embarresed 2 tell her face 2 face just twitter her or msn her but telling her in person wud be way more romantic do it quickly becuse u may only get 1 shot at it xxx ;D btw u sound really sweet

[AZD²]

I missed the part where you asked her out and she said no. Quit messing around and ask her out. If she says no, well then you can move on but she might say yes. One thing is for sure if you don't do it you will always wonder what might have happened if you had only tried~