my life has made a 360, can anyone read my palm?

[Diamond]

i am naturally a happy, fun loving individual who dosnt let anything get in my way, but life hasnt been treating me good from a very young age. i still kept my happyness and faith after witnessing and going through something tragic at the age of seven. Thats the year my parents divorced. its was extremely hard for me. my father recieved full custody of my brother and i, which i thought was a compete mistake. i learned to undersatand my fathers ways, without his love and appreciation . i grew up with nannys since his work seemed to be his main priority. i lost contact with my mother at age 9. by the time i reached my teenage years i stated to wonder if i was a victim of brainwashing. i wasnt stupid, i had no choice but to mature at a young age by the brainwashing my dad and his family did to me. my teenage years were very hard for me. i was lost and had no direction in life. my fathers business too my brother and i to many citys and states. i was always the new kid, i felt like such and outcast but i walways managed to have an abundance of friends. i was pretty cool. but even friends and popularity wouldnt feel the void in my heart. i started to hang out with a bad crowd. got myself involved with drugs and starting living the party lifestyle. i guess that was my way of self medicating to deal with my past and my chronic self esteem isuues. to this day, i feel as if i dont belong or relate to anyone. im 22 now. i began to show interest in astrology things like that. im a leo born on july 25 1990. im a white horse in the Chinese astrology. i also started going to physics for guidence. yes i met some questionable ones, but there was some who said similar things. that caught my attention. they were spot on! after that i continued to live my life, but of course, my bad luc got in the way. my family from my mothers side found my through social internet sites. words can never explain how happy i was! again my bad luck got in the way. i soon found out my mother was murderd after her many attempts in finding my brother and i.. i soon found out my father lied and manipulated his was through the court system and took advantage of the fact that my mother couldnt speak english to defend herself. yet i still had a love for my father. yes hes was bad, and had issues with alcohol and drugs. but he gave my brother and i everything and i mean everything we eveer wanted. my dads business went under due to the economy and we lost close to everything. i went back to my old ways. self medicating. but this time it was much worse. alcohol, pills, cocaine, and the worst... meth... i lost my job, appt, soul. i had no choice but to move back in with my father. like i said... he lost everything which my my new life style not anything diff than my own. still my father remaind to be absent in our lives. though he did manage to keep us sheltered and fed even though it was nothing compared to the life we had. anyways.. time to get to the point... i need some help, i have lost faith in a bunch of things but the "supernatural" always had a way of holding my interest. here are pictured of my palm. i would appreciate some guidence from real people who could help this my lost and damaged soul. im on ther verge of a mental and physical breakdown.. heres a link to my palm pics. i would usually go to a pyscic but i obviously dont have the money anymore. please! someone help me.

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[livelybun472]

I can read your palm, but would have to see it first.