Feel like I'm always being watched and people have negative views on me?

[Annoymous123]

Everywhere I go I seem to feel like either everybody is staring at me, or they're calling me names and whispering things behind my back... I actually feel like somebody's reading this whilst I'm typing it laughing at me... even with my private conversations on facebook.. I sometimes hide them because I feel like someones reading my private things.. EVEN when nobody's in the room or in the house... sounds weird but I just feel like this 24/7 with everything. I can't do anything with my boyfriend cus' of feeling like someones in the room staring at me... i can't take a shower without feeling like someones staring at me.... recently I started a new job, and constantly i'm thinking they're staring at me thinking I'm a freak and calling me eery name under the sun and its horrible to sit there thinking people are calling you names.. i feel terrible about myself.. i feel ugly.. i feel fat.. everything i HATE myself and i hate who i am as a person what is this? the psychiatrist in the hospital told me it sounded like i had anxiety but i dont know
thanks in advance, its really starting to affect everything i do

[deanne]

You're not being watched and people don't hate you. What you have is severe depression and anxiety. Go to a dr ASAP, tell him everything and ask him for anti-depressants. In a few weeks, you'll feel like a completely different, normal person, looking forward to the future.

[Joy]

Anxiety yes but paranoia as well I'd say. It may be paranoid personality disorder rather than straight paranoia which could be one of many other things, such as paranoid schizophrenia. NO I'm not saying you have that or may be getting it just a fact for a few unfortunate individuals.

What interests me is why you went to see the psychiatrist? Did your doctor think you may be paranoid or have PPD? The psychiatrist decided that it was anxiety? That's not the sort of anxiety most people get for sure. Did he even suggest anything like counselling or medication? Is he seeing you again to check on your progress, if it's getting worse or better? It's reassuring he's not seeing anything serious but I'd have wanted to see a bit more follow up myself.

Good luck