Help: Huge heartache and I'm getting seriously depressed?

[spacecadet]

I went all the way with a girl on the second date - she's probably the most physically beautiful girl I've ever been with in my life. A real head turner. She's 21 and I'm 33. We shared parts of the bills when we went out, but I dished in like 75% of everything we ordered. i strongly suspect that she was testing me to see if I had money or was rich, which I am not by no means. She said she really liked me, and well we ended up in a run-down old cheap hotel for the evening (her suggestion!!!), as she had to work early and didn't want to go where I live or where she lives. I have OCD, general anxiety disorder, and depression - now it's probably clinical. I fall in love to easily, and it took me a long time to recover from my ex gf (..if I really did recover). This girl I recently saw is not answering any messages or phone calls (1 phone call 2 texts since last Saturday, when I last saw her, and no answer, yet she still has me on bloody facebook) I will not call her back - I don't want to be humiliated more than I already am. Heartache landed me in hospitals before for attempted suicide. i don't want this to happen anymore. I'm also hypersensitive and if I like a girl I would do everything for the lady - maybe even jump off a bridge (well, not that...). I only saw the beauty in this lady and paid no attention to the fact that she was probably using me for a night out or just testing the waters to see if I have money. The evening was great though, and I cannot get this off my mind. I did not eat properly at since Saturday. have a huge knot in my gut. The girl inspired me like nothing else in a long time - in years. I can barely eat now - have to force myself. I feel weak and get dizzy all the time. I know I am not a teenager, but this is the way I am. Any suggestions on how to get over this with minimal damage to myself?

[.]

Get a girl that doesnt want just sex.

[Pete]

Listen you need a girl who takes you as you are and not wanting to use you. There will be someone out there for you and you will always get pushed back as that's life you just got to find a way to accept it hope you are ok mate anyway and she ain't worth it
GL with everything all the best

[Happy Hippie]

First of all, try to REALLY CARE FOR YOURSELF... you're worth much more than any of those girls, no matter how tremendously beautiful they might be. If someone does that to another person (what that girl did to you), they don't deserve anything. And certainly she doesn't deserve you being depressed and hurt that way... she's not worth it. Try to eat, try to remind yourself to GO ON LIVING, and remind yourself how immensely valuable you are for the world and for yourself... why starve for someone who doesn't even care? Don't join her in that "not caring", even if nobody cared about you in the world -which is NOT the case-, you would still have something to live for: YOU CAME HERE FOR A REASON, and that reason (a special one, which only you know), is huge and inspiring enough to keep you going forever and ever...

...I know you know all this. You will find it deep down in your soul... have a look... ;-)