please, tell me what is the right thing to do in my situation?

[Yash]

please, tell me what is the right thing to do in my situation?

I am a 17-year-old who is in his senior year of high school. im indian (born and brought up in usa with strict immigrant parents). In my entire life, i have made it my goal to always try to do the right thing, no matter how painful it is. Im now not sure of what is the right thing to do in this situation. During an sat class i met this one white blonde girl who i think is the most beautiful/cute/amazing person in the entire planet (which is wierd for me because before i used to only find girls attractive, but she struck me inside with more than just her beauty). We've only had a few conversations that happened about three weeks ago. She thinks im nice and smart. Im not smart. Take a look for yourself: freshman GPA - 3.23, sophomore GPA - 3.9, Junior GPA - 3.82, senior classes grades so far( Academic English 4 - A-, AP Calculus BC - B, AP Biology - C-, AP Environmental Science - B+, Spanish 3 - A+, Digital Media and Photographic Design 1 - A+, Health - A). The thing is I really like this girl a lot. Whenever I see her and her smile, I feel like the world is fair and peaceful for once. And when I dont see her I feel a pain (physical pain, im not even kidding) inside my chest/stomach. I really want a girlfriend but i know that such a thing could never be. Im too ashamed and too scared to go out and have a life. Im too ashamed because my parents say that im dumb, lazy, irresponsible, pathetic, stubborn, and abnormal (i dont know if they are rying to motivate me to push myself, telling me my faults in order to help me,etc, but i wished they wouldnt kill my confidence like this and make me feel like I dont deserve to be happy). And when my parents keep talking to many about grades/sat/collegeessays/etc i get so stressed out that it makes me angry/depressed at the world and its cruelty. Im too scared to go out and have a social life because right now i am always just studying at home (friday/saturday nights are usually just me doing studying and then maybe watching an episode of the big bang theory,simpsons, family guy, etc.), and if i do have a social life and, if God is nice to me, the girl of my dreams as my girlfriend then wont my grades go down? Plus my parents still treat me like im young (whch is a good thing, but still annoying). I wanted my senior year (and the rest of my life) to be to have fun/enjoy life/be happy/have fun with friends/ have her as my girlfriend as well as work hard/push myself/do the right thing. But I now see that this cant be for now. I cant drag the girl of my dreams into my life, it wouldnt be fair to her. I know that she will probably be happy with some other guy who Im sure is better than me in every single way (and his parents treat him with respect and maturity). So now, I try and avoid contact with her, but it hurts so much. This is the first time I have ever had any feelings for another girl before. I cry inside so much that it pains and i get so angry at how cruel god can be sometimes to me and so many others in this tough world of ours. My real issue is: Did I do the right thing? Is it right for me to give up the girl of my dreams/social life/friends/happiness so that i can have more time to study and push myself. Please tell me if I did the right thing because I still see her in th sat classes and its not too late for me to see friends outside of school/satclasses. I dont care how painful it is, I will survive it if i know that i am doing the right thing. So please, tell me what is the right thing to do in my situation.

[Charles T]

Relax. You are to hard on yourself. You are smart. You do the right thing, you try hard. You are not valedvictoridan and you don't feel smart. Look, you will get into a competitive college,and you will probably graduate with distinction if you keep working as you are.

This girl you met. You feel the love from her. That is good. You should confront her on your feelings for her for your sake. You should tell her face to face that she you feel a connectio with her that you want to build on with her.

Regardless of outcome with this female, you should feel proud of your accomplishments in academics and continue to build and improve on it. Getting good grades and taking challenging courses is what will get you a good job that will give you the ability to support yourself. Once you support yourself, the girls will come to you because you can provide shelter and other things.