What should I do. Youtube crush?

[Valtehdinoz]

I have a crush on a Youtuber, not the sort of crush like 'awhh so cute, lyk omgh so hawt.' I see more than just his looks, his personality and everything about him is truly amazing. I have a crush on Onision. I am not new to his channel and have been a banana since 2008 (5 years now). I have seen all his videos* Encore, Archive, UhOhBro, Onision and just have two more videos left in a playlist on his Speaks' channel.
*Apart from the ones he hasn't made/uploaded yet.
I know he has a girlfriend now and happy for him, but I feel so bad about what his past exes had put him through and wish I was able to actually be there and hold him in my arms telling him that it's okay and to ignore everyone's BS.
I myself have improved over the years and a much better person and changing, his videos help me a lot and make me smile. His smile brightens everything up and cheers me up, I know, I am cheesy.
We both live for love and strive on it, with great integrity and hope, I myself am also a hopeless romantic. I wish there where more people like Greg, he is such a beautiful man, another person that holds up some light to this dark forsaken world. I wish there where more men like him.
I truly love him for him, I have seen every video on his 5 channels and seen the About Onision and all of the other playlists.
I just wish I knew him in person, I wish he knew my existence and knew me, I don't care about his youtube fame or any of that crap, hell if he still had the same personality but just another person who wasn't well known and was just another person, I'd still go for him and love him.
I have signed up in the Onision.net forms, following him on Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram, and subscribed to him on Youtube, I also liked his page on facebook, hell I sent him a thank you message to his inbox on his facebook like page for helping me grow as a better person and making me smile (etc), hoping he will see it and answer. I wish I was able to Skype with him. Ughh the feels.
He means a lot to me and I will always be a loving fellow Banana. <3

[M.A.W.]

Taboo.