What does my dream mean?

[jadee.]

I had a dream that i was drunk, swimming in a lake with my brother. I had a red lollipop in my mouth. We kept pushing each other underwater and i felt like i was drowning. I had my best friend pick me up. As we were driving down the road, we came across an anaconda laying over the road, blocking it. She decided she would drive over it. We saw the anaconda's head, it was eating a deer. It wrapped its body around the tires of the car and dragged us through town. It was very long, probably half a mile. While it was pulling us, I was waving my fist in victory out of the window to all of the people that were watching. It finally dropped us off at a very old victorian looking house. The house was white and it was my house. I walk inside, its my birthday party. All of my relatives are there. One of my uncles tries to tell me a story, and I feel sick so I start walking away to go throw up. My mom and grandpa get mad at me for interrupting his story and make me stay and listen to the whole thing before leaving. I go to the bathroom. It has a giant shower in it. The shower is all white and circular, and it has a toilet in the floor, just a toilet seat over a hole in the ground. It also has a dial on the wall. It is for a heating and vibrating floor. I turn it on. I get in the water and take the red lollipop out of my mouth. I start throwing up. It is a very thick paste, its white, pink, and red. as it comes up I cant breathe very well. It is even in my nose. I finally get all of it out and get dressed and return to my party. All of my old coworkers are there. I havent even gotten ready, my hair is still wet. All i want is a guy that i was seeing while i worked at the place that i used to work. he also worked there. i start looking for him. He is outside throwing a football in the street with a few other people. He is about 7 years younger. His facial hair has been shaved off. He is wearing a baby blue baseball cap, sweatshirt, and khaki shorts. I am embarrassed by how i look, so i go back inside to get ready. the party has died down a lot. There are people in rooms. Some are hooking up. I think the guy i was looking for is hooking up with someone in a room. I kick down the door. A fat man is in the room with very large lips. He is staring into a mirror at himself, he is drunk and cant breathe well. He keeps wheezing. i walk into another room and find the boy on a bed. He will not speak to me. He grabs my arm and tries to get me to lay down with him. I refuse. (I am angry with him because in real life, he stopped talking to me out of nowhere. I have been wondering for months why he has done this.) I dont want to lay with him until i get an explanation. I am crying. He is angry with me, he will not speak. He keeps smiling at me, like he is mocking me. He gets up and i have to chase him around the house. I find him on a couch. I sit next to him, he is on my right side, my best friend is on the left. I keep asking him why he stopped talking to me. He acts like i did something bad to him. My best friend vouches for me and tells him that i really cared about him. He tells me to look on twitter and i will find the answers. I go on one of my friends accounts, she has a video about me. She says that I am jaded in the video, she talks about how my name is badass and fits me. My phone dies. I tell the boy that he makes no sense. I keep grabbing his face, hoping he will realize that i'm serious. He is still smiling at me, mocking me. I hear someone laugh at me. I look over where my best friend was sitting. instead, another one of my friends is next to me. (In real life, this friend told me to be careful of this guy.) She thinks im stupid. I see lights outside. I go outside and the police are there. I go to close the door because it is open. There are many doors to close where the front door is. Probably about four screen doors and the actual front door. I am scrambling to close them all, because i am scared. the doorknob is on the right side of one door, the left side on the next, and alternate. I look up, a policeman is running towards me. My dream ends.
may i also add that i woke up twice during this dream, went back to bed, and started again where i left off in the dream. it also felt very realistic, also like i was stuck in the dream. I dont know much about lucid dreaming, but i think i could have been.

[Rgurl]

I have an answer, but Yahoo! won't allow me to post because it's too many characters. So I'll post a quick summary and if you want to know more, please email me at r.n853@yahoo.com and I'll send you the full explanation.

OVERALL...

So here's what I get from your dream and I hope it helps. You are coming to face the consequences of your out of control behavior and the impact it's had on your life. This may be the first time you've searched inward for answers and you are coming to terms not only with the impact of your behavior, but who you really are.