How should I go about my life situation?

[Tom]

Hello. I want to start this question off by saying everything I write down on here is true. It is my current feelings and how I feel and I'm confident on them. I'm extremely sorry if this does not make sense - if I heard it off someone, it probably wouldn't.

I'm a 14 year old Year 10 student currently in high school. Lately I've been thinking about home education as I have a strong dislike to school. I believe it has knocked my confidence in several ways. I've grown lumps on my forehead over the past year (approx) and they really do knock my confidence, in my opinion it's hit rock bottom. I know my appearance is terrible too, and if I'm honest I feel as if I can't go on here anymore. What I've tried to propose to my parents is to get home schooled. I want to build my confidence back up, you may say "being alone won't do this", well I'm going to point out to you now that staying in this school won't either. It's worth a try. I have short hair at the moment and I believe I'll want to grow it more once I'm out of the school to maybe try and cover my forehead. I want better hair anyway, but just don't feel like I have the confidence, pathetic, I know. I feel as if I have bad friends here. They aren't very supportive, in fact they know nothing about me as they don't seem like proper friends at all. I want to get out and try to communicate more with my old primary school friends who unfortunately moved away from me. Just to add, it's not exactly like I "hate" the place, I do dislike it but it's more the fact of my "secret" issues that I want to sort out.

Also to add, I've gone to the doctors and had x-rays on my forehead for these lumps, they said that they aren't cysts and I cannot have these removed. They said they may go when I'm older which is an extremely upsetting concept for me.

Should I go ahead to try improve my life outside of school? I would be able to do home education as I know I'm a pretty intelligent teenager. Thank you for your time and apologies if my situation doesn't make sense.
We don't have a guidance dept.

[shenyanggerry]

Try your guidance department. they're there to help.

[lisa]

Awwww sweetheart I completely understand where ur coming from, my daughter is also 14 & being accepted & looking a certain way is high on her list of priorities, especially at your age. I blame the media & society & these 'airbrushed fake celebrities' for the pressure on youngsters today. As u get older & reach adulthood looks dont tend to worry u so much. When my daughter whinges about her spots/big bottom or whatever else is bothering her on that particular day I remind her of all the people in the world who have disfigurements or missing limbs or terminal illnesses, the blind & the deaf who would give anything to have spots/lumps for the chance to see or hear, but they dont run away & hide. They grab life with both hands & get on with it otherwise what else are they supposed to do? If u want to do home schooling go for it but tbh Tom isnt that the cowards way out? sorry to sound harsh but u cant run away just cos of ur 'appearance' & u CAN grow ur hair! Plus coming out of mainstream school will do nothing for ur social skills cos u wont be mixing with others, u wont grow strong & mould into the character u should be cos youll be shutting yourself away. The hair wont take long to grow & if anyone takes the piss laugh it off. My sons quite chubby but when he gets teased about being fat he simply says 'no shit sherlock tell me summit I already know & is that the best u can come up with?' All Im saying is be strong & FACE UR FEARS dont run away from them & take the easy way out. Youll be bored stiff anyway, u need mates. And if ur mates are pricks find some new ones! Gd luck Tom (my lads Tom too so cool name lol) with whatever u decide to do. God bless & Merry Xmas.