Help: Huge heartache and I'm getting seriously depressed?

[spacecadet]

I went all the way with a girl on the second date - she's probably the most physically beautiful girl I've ever been with in my life. A real head turner. She's 21 and I'm 33. We shared parts of the bills when we went out, but I dished in like 75% of everything we ordered. i strongly suspect that she was testing me to see if I had money or was rich, which I am not by no means. She said she really liked me, and well we ended up in a run-down old cheap hotel for the evening (her suggestion!!!), as she had to work early and didn't want to go where I live or where she lives. I have OCD, general anxiety disorder, and depression - now it's probably clinical. I fall in love to easily, and it took me a long time to recover from my ex gf (..if I really did recover). This girl I recently saw is not answering any messages or phone calls (1 phone call 2 texts since last Saturday, when I last saw her, and no answer, yet she still has me on bloody facebook) I will not call her back - I don't want to be humiliated more than I already am. Heartache landed me in hospitals before for attempted suicide. i don't want this to happen anymore. I'm also hypersensitive and if I like a girl I would do everything for the lady - maybe even jump off a bridge (well, not that...). I only saw the beauty in this lady and paid no attention to the fact that she was probably using me for a night out or just testing the waters to see if I have money. The evening was great though, and I cannot get this off my mind. I did not eat properly at since Saturday. have a huge knot in my gut. The girl inspired me like nothing else in a long time - in years. I can barely eat now - have to force myself. I feel weak and get dizzy all the time. I know I am not a teenager, but this is the way I am. Any suggestions on how to get over this with minimal damage to myself?

[Mr]

ask God for help. I did and i'll say this.. when God steps in, problems step out


God can get you though this He's the only one that can.

Humbly,
Mr.

[petee p]

Just wait and see, she may be playing hard to get or just accept that shes not interested...remember that the best form of suicide is to kill ur old life and build a new one, change everything... Visit blackdogtribe.com for online support.. Also if ur selfesteem is very low right now. U need to find ways to improve it, look online for tips. Also try learning and doing new things; start small and this will give u a sense of achievement. .. Visit yourlifeyourvoice.org to talk to a free online councellor.. Look up exercise and depression online it releases endorfins which improve mood and brain chemistry. and Art Therapy; channelling what ur feeling into something creative helps ur brain process the negativity in ur head: a good technique is to doodle when thinking about the things that depress u, doodling brings ur thoughts into the present and stops u dwelling on the things that depress u. also find some volunteer work; helping others or nature builds selfesteem, gives life new meaning gives perspective and good karma... u dont have to believe in god but finding some spirituality can really help and good karma is a good start... basically research all u can on depression then when u find things that help come on here and share with the other deprrssed people, more good karma. Why not join clubs groups and activities in ur community where you ll meet like minded people. Or challenge urself by joining groups u wouldnt normally be interested in.  good luck and dont be afraid of going to ur doctor, be totally honest and they ll understand and be able to help; medication or a change of medication can work wonders, like lifting a weight from ur shoulders.

[Naguru]

In the best interest of your own mental health, I suggest that you please consult a professionally qualified doctor and take proper treatment for heartache. It is for you to take some drastic steps immediately without fail. Otherwise the situation may become further complicated.

[Nick]

I recently went through some bad things, I'm still dealing with them now, but, I found what helps and I mean REALLY helps. Talk to a friend, even if they have nothing to say back, I told my friend and all he said was that he would be there if I needed help. Those words were life saving for me.