I cry over my ex everyday.. Even after 8 months..?

[Thunderousoatmeal494]

So my ex and I dated for three years. We broke up last May. He was my first kiss first everything so I became attached easily. After the breakup he had NC with me for a few months. Then would randomly contact me messing with my head with texts like "oh you're tweeting at other guys?" Then "send me a picture of you and your body, show me what I'm missing" then be like "f you, you're disgusting" (randomly) then "I miss thinking about you, talking to you" .... Then I would be like "are you ever going to give me a chance" and he would say "not now" then ignore me for days.

We got into a fight because of guys on my social networking (even though hes blocked in everything) but he was looking for a fight and got one. Hes a hyprocrite. I couldnt do certain things but when he did it, it was okay. So he was arguing saying "you're an ugly f. You're a fat c$#&. Etc. Im 5'8 and 130 lbs. and since our break up I've lost a lot of weight. Recently everybody has been telling me I look so skinny. And the truth is its because I take my adderall late in the day so I'm not hungry and don't eat at all throughout the day. I literally will walk to my fridge think of him calling me a fat f, and walk away. It's been 8 months and I still cry about him every single day. How can he do these things then text me weeks later acting like nothing happened. He doesn't realize how much it affects me. A part of me wants to just be so skinny for him that he will have nothing to put me down with and maybe he would love me again. I don't know why I still love him. I think it's because I know he has issues and is crazy ad that's why I wanna be with him to help him, almost. He is very manipulative and controlling. Yet I love him with my whole heart and still can't even move on or date anyone or hang out with a guy without comparing them to my ex. It's horrible and I hate it. And after everything he's done to me, I hate that I would STILL take him back because I know how good we can be.

[Taylor]

aww im sorry to hear that. No girl deserves that kind of physical and emotional pain that you are going through. You are beautiful just the way you are and you shouldn't be hurting yourself for some guy who just put you down. You have to realize that. He shouldn't be interested in who you are dating if he broke up with you and that's what you should tell him. He doesn't control you. No guy is worth that. The one thing that heals broken heart is talking with some friends and some time. Please don't starve yourself. Making your self bone skinny is not the way to make the hurt go away.
hope this helps. I gave it a lot of thought and i think that this is the best thing to do

[M&M]

Keep busy.move on.he is not worth your time.

[Jackie Martin]

u need to meet someone else, this is gonna ruin you
im stuck in a situation like that with a friend and im married, its very hard
i understand it 100% no matter what they say, no matter what they do , we love them

you have to try , try real hard, meet someone else, keep your mind busy on other things,
if he loved you he wouldnt call you fat, or talk crap like that
trust me, its gonna be hard, but get over it quick, please start looking and flirting with other people have fun!!! get out to the bars or pubs or whatever good luck

[eTherpi]

You are putting him on a pedastal in your mind. You cant get stuck in the mourning stage. After you cry. You get angry about what happened in the relationship and talk to yourself about how much better you can do and that it just wasnt meant to be.

[Kayt]

I know you became attached but you need to open your eyes and see him for the jerk that he is. You're not fat in the least, you were already on the light side of the weight scale for your height.

You can't let a guy mess with you this much. You need to learn to love yourself because you're beautiful. You shouldn't ever take someone back who is that horrible to you. You've seen his ugly side with the nasty things he's said to you and NOBODY deserves to be treated that way.

You don't need to go out and date but you do need to move on. Cut off all contact with him. Have his number blocked so that he can't contact you. All it will do is keep reopening that wound and you won't be able to move on from that jerk if you don't.

Sadly you'll probably always compare those you date to this loser. But hopefully they will out shine him in every way. Concentrate on the things you don't like about him and eventually you'll see him for who he really is.

Anyone who's willing to try and hurt you (physically or emotionally) is not worth caring about. You're so much better than that and don't deserve the abuse.

[Ms.Medium]

You need a therapist. You obvioulsy have low self esteem and depression. You are hung up on some asshole that treats you like shit. He's a douche and if I were you I wouldn't shed another tear over some loser. Change your number and keep him blocked from all social media. He's an abuser and you're falling right into his trap by jumping everytime he sends you a text.

You don't love him, your self esteem is just so broken that you don't think anyone else COULD love you. Go out and find someone that treats you like you deserve to be treated. Being happy is the best revenge.