Why Cant i Get My Head on Right?

[ortonchampion]

I say i want to be a better person but i keep delaying...and then one minute i want to get better then next..i don't want to i like staying to myself...I'm not the social type i have problems with Self esteem and i have adhd and anxiety and bipolar..and i never was really motivated...because when it came to being pro active...i felt like i didn't fit in or Was trying to fit in....and its like when i think about really going to school as in college its like do i want to really take up theater to better my self so i can become a better talker but acting does interest me...it always did i never just took it in high school...like i've done it but had stage fright or felt cheesy...and til this day im interested in it like when i go to plays i just get that feeling like could i do that and i just get inspration to want to do it...but when it comes to actually going to sign up at a community college for it i back out and tell myself ill do it tomarrow...and even when my mom tells me i need to learn a trade and go to a trade school instead of trying to do acting at 23years old...because during high school in the mornings i went to a voltech school and took up carpentry because i loved working with my hands...and at the time i thought it was a volcational school as in like a school for media arts or whatever you wanted to get into and go into that field....after high school...but yeah i took up carpentry because i liked doing it..and you would make good money...and now its like i have no job...and am i wasting my life my still pondering for the last 4years

[Kevin]

I am big Neville Goddard fan. One of the things he says is ASSUME THE FEELING OF THE WISH FULFILLED.

I am a writer and everyday I am becoming and EVEN greater writer.

Play with

I am becoming an EVEN better person. The person I CHOOSE to be NOW.

Stop wanting.

Imagine BEING, the man you CHOOSE to be NOW.

Keep Playing

[Jody]

You can sign up for college theater courses without being a student and it's free. There are many courses in theater besides acting. Stagecraft has to do with building the sets and all the scenery and involves a great deal of carpentry and woodworking for most plays.

You could sign up for stagecraft one semester (4 months) and build and observe the actors, and then go for acting the following semester if it suits you. OR just go sign up for tryouts - you will have to interview and do a reading or little skit to get a part. You will only be competing with college kids for the most part, but there may be a handful of older people from around the community, there generally are, depending on the play and how many bodies are needed for the cast and crew. Costs nothing to try, beats sitting at home wishing you were there, and could lead to a job. Most theater people are bipolar and/or adhd, and generally a bit crazy, so you'll be in good company.

Nobody can get up and do these things for you. If you want something out of life you have to go after it. The theater director is not going to come and knock on your door, I can assure you of that. And your mom can't provide you a home for free forever either. Stop wishing you were somebody and become somebody. Wishes don't come true, they have no power. But prayer is extremely powerful, so ask God for help every morning to become the person He intends you to be, and thank Him every night for everything you have and for being there, for hearing you and for caring. Sometimes when you're lost and don't know where else to go, the best place to start is on your knees.