How to live a normal life?

[linzi]

Ive been raised with a life of crime and drama-my father died in jail when i was 5, my mother was addicted to crack and heroin and met a very nasty guy when i was 9 who subjected us to witness some terrifying things...when i was 14, my mother and her partner were imprisoned for possession with intent and made the papers. I lived with my 16yr old brother in a rented house and managed to maintain that by using my mothers money...that was eventually stopped and consequently i had to leave school to get work. In the meantime my mother demanded i visit her in jail and take things in to her as she feared she may die....i chose a different path and refused eventually...unfortunately, the damage of public knowledge was done and we were evicted from our house and i was refused work,'we dont want drug dealers daughter working here'.....i learnt quickly that my 'history' would isolate me from achieving a normal life and didnt speak about it again...putting on a social mask...i gained employement and my mother was released-clean from class A drugs when i was 18. She had an unconventional way of living and enjoyed analysing everything from media manipulation to government control-insisting that we were all being numbed and we were not to conform....i went to uni, had children and got a job as a TA in a primary school...i have never taken drugs and do what i can to avoid crime yet my mother is still dependant on me!...she's left her house saying she fears her life and keeps sending me messages that i am selfish and dont care etc. I'm feeling so frustrated with this situation and suffocated by all the drama!...I genuinely try to avoid it but she keeps involving me. Am I selfish? Disloyal? I dont want my children to think thats normal...

[Charlene]

It's horrible to hear that someone went through that honey but don't think for one minute that your selfish or anything! Your mum was selfish for not bein there for her kids and responsibilities! You should be relieved and proud of your kids an move on in life and take each day as it comes! But I would highly reccomend counceling for you! Get everything out!

[Abdur]

yes God can help you. all you need is to follow the guidance from God and his help. you need to follow's God's way of life. God says what is good and what is bad for you. you will also achieve inner peace of heart. so why don't you accept God's way of life which is islam? islam is the way of life selected by God in his last book and final guidance for mankind the glorious Quran. you can follow it. Muhammad is the last and final messenger for you to follow. you will find the solutions from God's help. God is one so call him to help you out. it's true man.

[Farman 1214]

you are very brave I appreciate you for sacrifices which you had to do in your childhood.so seek for job and do,nt involve in dramas .Best of luck