Is this creepy and stalkerish?

[Jasmine]

I was with a guy for 6 months in an open relationship but was , and still am, in love with him- he took my virginity but doesnt know. he was literally my first everything, and i never felt so happy in my life... but at the same time i was too shy to show him how i feel and how im interested in him.... there were a lot of times when he did sweet things for me and i laughed at him, and a lot of times i told him i dont lik him (i felt that way in the beginning). after a month he said he thinks we should hav an open relationship- he thought i really want interested and was surprised when i agreed. i started to lik him more and more after we had sex, and i couldnt get him off my mind. but, all of a sudden, my dad took me away from my college and brought me home, which is 4 hrs away. the last thing the guy i liked said to me was that hes sorry for me- a month later he unfriended me on facebook. I want to friend him so, so bad, but im afraid that he wont accept it, and that will leave me devastated. so i made a fake one and requested it and he accepted it. now i feel lik im being stalkerish and creepy.

[M]

nope youre jyust going thru grief

[Amber]

Sorry, he sucks. Honestly, it helps to not keep tabs on him. Everything you know will hurt and keeping updated keeps the wounds open. Seeing photos or updates implying that he's with somebody else won't feel great. I just found out that my first is now engaged to somebody else. I'm totally over him, but he was a dick, I'm so glad I'm nowhere near him. Point is, just because he's your first everything doesn't mean anything in the long run. Even if you were still there or go back, if he was looking for an open relationship we wasn't the guy you need at this point in your life.