is it weird to hold hands with your friend? is this love or friendship?

[der]

so long story short, im a guy who's bisexual (i think?) i dont usually have many friends i dont quite go out much, i met these bunch of guys via video gaming on pc i usually add all people on contact or facebook just for the fun of it, and eventually make friends with them (both genders).
i've became good friends with 3 of them, and i know these guys over 3 years now. one is a guy from germany that i like so much (as a friend, and more) however he's straight. we've fought sometimes over gameplay and over if our friendship being true so i have invited him to visit be because i cant because i'm an immigrant and i've been rejected for refugee therefore i cant travel and my situation is really bad. anyway he's finally came last christmas for 2 days total, i've paid 2 days for hostel room, his foods and gifts for his family, he only paid for train and one day at hostel.
when he went back i was just annoyed by his reaction to everything i say being gay. i told him that if we had time i wished that we could sit at the beach listen to certain favorite music of his and hold hands, and i got really upset cuz he totally rejected this idea and called it gay
i'm not even sure what love is, but i like him so much and being with him makes me gain my self confidence and manliness, heck i got flirted by 3 girls and i dont usually .. we both know we arent going to be boyfriends and we slept together in the hostel its obvious nothing is sexual even in my desire even though its sad enough for me i just want to hold his hands and lay my head on his shoulder cause he makes me feel secure. i wanna hunt girls with him, get drunk and wasted with him, and do everything together. is this love or friendship? am i too old for this? im 25 he's nearly 22 im not someone who looks at people organizing them by sexuality or color, i dont consider age at all, and i dont give one f about what ppl think i do or look like in general so holding hands with my friend.. i mean its silly to argue about it but.. it just makes me sad how i'd do anything for him and he still class this as gay and other things i say or do being gay
why is sharing nonsexual unconditional love considered a crime and classified being gay or straight, weird or normal? i mean if him coming all this way made me beyond happy, goddamn i smoked half a cig packet within minutes at the beach at 6am as he left and cried my heart out for this 2 days experience that summed up all the 3 years endless chatting but i keep lusting for more, again, nothing sexual, im not a sexual dirty minded a$$. i love people, i love life, and i have nothing but love and kindness to share even if it means my failure and loss in life!

[Rosa Lynn <3]

Being gay isn't an insult. However, yes if a friend asked me to hold hands on the beach I would be weirded out, and I'm a girl. It's just something that lovers do, not really friends. If he doesn't want to, that's perfectly understandable. If you really like him, you will be able to realize your own feelings. Since you're having doubts, you probably don't really like him in that way. Since he's straight, don't try anything with him... You'll only succeed in ruining your friendship.