Where did it go wrong with me and gf? No jerks please! Just informative answers! timeline! HELP!?

[Sam]

TIME LINE

This is was my first relationship went on off and on from December 2010 to June of 2012. This was her first relationship to. We were both 18 and ended this when we were 20.
- Went out for two weeks in Dec 2010 broke up, forgot about her for a weekend, she cried and I came back. She said she didn't know what she wanted, etc etc So I said I would wait.
- Had a strange suspicious about some dude from the Army that she met before me, friends told me it was sort of a relationship but sorta not, didn't work out bad romance. However, still friends etc
- I didn't react well, especislly when she told me she never had a boyfriend, tried to be respectful, but after a two week relationship then ending up waiting on her sorta made me even more insecure.
- One night during a dicusson she said she couldn't garuntee that she would end up with me, I was mad I was like wtf am I waiting for you?
- Then, I started hanging out with other girls and started making her jealous it worked.
- Felt really guilty but a mutual friend let me use her Fb and pretend to be someone else to talk some sense in to her, and find out if she was playing games.
- Finally got to go out with, success I asked her out on the day of the royal wedding.
- Little things from the past really messed with me, like she almost ended up waiting on the army dude, but wouldn't wait for me? Or even make plans a head of time, could barely even write love letter back, or affection. Most hang outs were always on her terms.
- I wanted to hold off on sex, so I saw affection as a away to supplment.
- She complained we never did anything, but every time I tried she was busy, at work, with family
- Night I needed her the most ( Keep in mind I was always there for her at the drop of a hat) she lied to me about what she was doing, It wasn't the fact she lied but it was during the time I needed her the most. I had to support my family for the first time at 19... From that night on.. she tripped me out I began to argue, or be more of a asshole, or I would be sweet but if it wasn't givien back I'd get mad ( Which I know is wrong) Any time I tried to have a serious conversation about things she would just chnage the subject flip it on me and cry.. then arguement would happen.
- I held on for so long because I promised I'd never leave her..
- Bad arguement one day ended up breaking up...
- As usual I came back strong, was there for her, made her food, flowers etc
- This went on for months then.. after Christmas we got in to a huge fight.. and finally she told me she didn't want a realtionship.. Which I got really mad because that's all I wanted to hear or needed.. Not " Oh you are such a gentlemen and sweet, and you cook and clean... triple threat LOL but I don't know what I want"..
- I went off on Fb said some bad things accused her of cheating etc
- Pride parents saw it were pissed off at me, her Mom wanted to talk to me and get her husband on me
- I sent a text explaining my side that didn't go well
- So then for a month in January of 2012 was emotion and then came back, to her door and apologized her started talking agai
- I wanted to ask her to be my Valentine again, so I tried to talk to her parents didn't go well
- So I left her alone, then days later two dudes tried to fight me they were sent by her
- I found out she told everyone she already told me no, and everything... Which TBH WOULD HAVE BEEN GREAT instead of playing me for months. Hot and cold, hot and cold, Every time I tried to let go she'd end up saying she missed me in her life but wouldn't be in a relationship with me.
- FIRST LOVES SUC
- I stayed away, until she came back months later saying the other dude fled when he got bored of her but that they were just friends and she learned a lot and etc etc saying sorry
- I took her back
- She agreed to tell her parents when the time was right.
- I finger her vagina and it was loose
- At the bookstore one day looked at Astrology Romance book went to my sign, then went to another sign for matches... Yes, Sorry I am being paranoid! I am just so upset over her
- Then one day tried to put my foot down on the relationship told her I wanted to take it slower, no more intimacy, etc until she talks to her parents, and that I wanted to wait till marriage or wait till we were both close, and did things together
- One day I left a love letter on her car at school, her dad saw it and was pissed off. She basically lied to her parents about a lot of things in the relationship. I was jerked around so much by her, and the way I handled it was too hard..... She broke it off with me again, and blocked me off fb, then as soon as I deleted all the special things I did for her she unblocked me, then I blocked her. And now she complains about how guys are assholes.
- My friends says she is a scrub she just likes attention from guys, and doesn't care about quality. Also, my Dad says she is nuts " She'd hang you in your sleep if she could

I just don't know how to get over her, she has a side to I am sure. But I gotta move on, I tried to be as honest as I could I admit I dealt with some of these things wrong. But I feel like Ill never have a good woman again, she seemed like she had morals to, and so did her family. Thats what I liked the most about her.

[Sky]

You have to completely get over her, otherwise the hot and cold patches will just become a routine. Why be in a relationship with some much stress/secrecy/ unhappiness. I know it'll be hard seeing as she's your first love but they're will always be more women. Always. You need to block her on fb, delete cell phone numbers, rip up the photos, and give away the gifts. You need to completely take her out of your life. You guys broke up before, what say that it won't happen again. She's your ex for a reason, don't ever forget that. Good luck man