I cut my wrists please read all?

[Brandi]

i'm 13 years old. And I think I'm going through stages of depression. If you wanna be down-grading or mean right now. You can just leave. I'm not doing all this for attention whatsoever.
Okay. well.
It all started when my ex boyfriend broke up with me for another girl , and she and her friends would send me text messages and messages on facebook calling me a slut and bitch and all those mean critizing words. They sent me text messages threatning to kick * my a--* And to go kill myself cause nobody liked me. So I started thinking , well I don't care what you think. And I told my mom about the cyberbullying and she took care of it with the other girls mom. And it stopped. And it started back up , where my mom would send the girl a message on facebook of how disappointed and upset she is with all this happening. And that girl kept writing my mom back mean messages , saying I dont care your not my mom. And at the point i was just gonna take pictures *screenshots* of the messages and send them into the police department. But then my mom messaged her , I understand your still kids , but it's disrespectful. If you keep this up , you and your mom will be talking to the pd. And she said sorry to her and me. And it all stop. And then this is what happened. She started it back up again , and i started writing her back mean words it felt like I wasn't myself. Like someone else was in my body. I guess I thought it was the right thing? Than , I lost myself one night , and I posted a status saying I'm done with life. And I shut off the computer and was pasteing back and forth through the hallway crying softly cause my mom was in the other room , and than 2 minutes later my mom started crying and was yelling my name. And she was saying her chest hurt. And It stopped. so I continued , I sent my boyfriend a text saying Im sorry but we have to break up due to issues right now. And he said okay. And then I got back on Facebook and I had about 20 notifications from people and girls commenting on that post calling me petty , and bogus. And stupid , and even all the words in the book. I even had people saying go kill yourself then. Nobody cares. Youll feel stupid later on in life. And so I just forgot about it , and whispered to myself stay strong. And than a week later , my bestfriend was staying and everything felt like it got brung up again. One of my boy *friends* found a prank video on youtube , of us pranking him on facebook. And the girl that hates me showed him just to continue the drama. And he messaged me some fcked up stuff. And he had his friends calling me and saying you stupid bitch. And everything. And it was just a joke. I told him sorry but he said whatever sorry isnt gonna cut it. And Then later on that night everything calmed down. And then I got a message from one of my friends and it had a url with it. And she said Omg you need too see it , it's so mean. Im sorry. And I clicked on it , and it had a naked guy holding his penis and waving a sign back and forth that said my name and ugly. Like *Brandi Ugly* And My bestfriend was on the other couch laughing. And I was pretending it was funny too. Cause I don't show my emotions. And then everything stopped. Nomore drama , I apologized to everybody on facebook , and they all said sorry too. And so far everything is great with Facebook. And now im having problems at home. My dad yesterday night smacked me in my face , and he was telling me one day you suck at volleyball why are you in it. And my mom yells at me , but she always apologizes. And everything. I cry almost everyday , because I feel as if my dad treats me like im a toy. And my mom supports me. So I started cutting. If I would take you into my home during all those memories , you'll understand why I do this. I started cutting last month. I started off with long fake fingernails. I know it's weird. And then I went to Earring ends , and then to soft spot knifes , and then to butterknifes. and today it led to kitchen knifes. I want to show my mom my cuts. but I dont want her to think im crazy. This morning I head a headache cause my dad hit me hard lastnight. And I didnt wanna go to schooll. So my mom yelled I miswell just take you out of school and homeschool you. And I stayed in the cry and cried. And she had to go with her friend to help her clean a camper out. And she left. And I went into the bathroom with a kitchen knife , and made 8 cuts. Not deep enough to bleed. But to where it's a red mark. And it stings. Is this healthy for me?
I also had suicide thoughts all the time during my depression stage , to the point where I tried committing more than 2 times. But I don't really wanna die. Please don't be rude about this.
Im from Colorado.