Why do I feel fat when I'm most likely not?!?

[Candace]

For as long as I can remember, I've been fat. Yes, in a human beings lifetime they fluctuate quit alot. I'm also very self concious about myself. I was always picked on & I was used to be that girl that every guy didn't want because I wasn't skinny enough or pretty enough. But now I'm alot more in shape than I've ever been. I have an eating problem, in other cases, I LOVE food! I have an amazing boyfriend that I've been with for over a year now & he absolutely loves the way I look. He treats me like a princess. But when there's other pretty girls like very very gorgeous women. I feel so self conscious that it fucking sucks. I don't want feel like thar at all but I just don't know what to do. Please help**