Do you think she noticed how badly I treated her?

[AnimeGirl]

We can't do anything about what you did in the past now can we? But you definitely can help it right now if you want things to change in future. Talk to her, don't be afraid to apologise. Tell her how silly you were to do all that you did in the past. And face it, bro. You were being silly and scared for no reason at all. If she's the person you described, she'll definitely forgive you and come back to you. The coming back to you part may not be instant, in case she needs time, but she definitely will forgive you, and sooner or later, come back to you too. "if you want me In your life let me know" if she did mean that, she will take you back! Now don't screw it up again, or though I don't know who you are or where you are, I will find you and tie you up and force you to watch Toddlers & Tiaras till you swear to not chicken out ever again.