Why do I hate Christmas so much?

[Marine]

Just want to say that I too know the pain you feel. I grew up homeless living in a van with my brothers from ages 10-17 and I hated the holidays because i knew I wasn't getting the tree or the dinner or presents. One year when I was 13 a mentor gave me $50 because deep down he felt sorry for me. Now that I'm an adult i had to change my way of thinking, I had to set the example every day for my family that we are not poor minded mentality anymore, yes we had it bad in the past but we DONT have to live that way forever. I bought my own home at 19 years old and I invited my mom and family over ever night for dinner and for 6 years no one came over but I didn't stop inviting and I didn't stop cooking and yeah I was upset and mad and angry and jealous but I had to put that all aside and remember that one day they were going to be there, I had to have faith, and sometime it's hard to have faith and believe in something you can't see, but I had to. Believe that one day things will change!