I've been considering suicide?

[DrainTheHippos]

Oh my gosh, this sounds very similar to what I was going through in 10th grade. I'm currently in 12th grade. I felt the same way you did. It all went down hill for me after 8th grade. I hated 9th grade and 10th grade was even worse. I was cutting myself and I had one friend, only one friend and that one friend was also cutting herself and almost as depressed as I was. She made me feel even worse about myself. I felt so alone and was really suicidal. One day i actually went through with it, I overdosed on advil. I ended up going to a treatment center and was diagnosed with Depression and BPD. I was in treatment for a while and it helped a bit. When I got out of treatment I was still kinda depressed. It took me two years to actually recover from everything. I started going to therapy and that helped me alot. I started to hang out with people who actually cared about me and felt better about myself. I even stopped cutting myself. It's been two years since I overdosed and now looking back on it makes me sad to think I actually wanted to kill myself. I would have missed out on so much. I have now come to realize that I mean alot to people and that I matter.Please don't commit suicide, you have so much to love for. Everything will get better, yeah it won't happen overnight, but you can only go up from here. Get a therapist or talk to someone who can help. Suicide is not the answer it never is. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here. I've been at rock bottom and I feel for you. it sucks it really does but you're worth so much.