I thought he was a friend untill he made new friends.?

[Mouruto]

Lately it been bothering me that my ' friend' suddenly shut me out. We met 4 months ago cause we both go to college for the first year and we are in the same class. We really become close friends quickly. After school we go to my place, and I cook for him and after dinner, we go to his dorm to make homework together. We have a lot in common. We give eachother presents. I never talked about my feelings, but with him. I opened up and telled him my struggles and what happened in my life and how it affected me. I felt good cause I could talk to someone. He introduced me to many stuff he liked that I suddenly start liking it too.

But a month ago, he met new people and start talking to them and became friends with them and he decided to stop being friends with me. He ignored me, he goes hang out with his new friends after school, I'm not invited, they give each other present, he doesn't answer me texts and doesn't talk to me.

He and his new friends made a clique, they hang out every day, always together in a group. When I ask them something they blow me off. When we had to work in a group for a school project, they lie to me because they didn't want me in their group. At Christmas, they had a litle Secret Santa party. They invited their girlfriends and boyfriends and they deliberately excluded me. I tried to be their friend, everyone of them but I wasn't good enough, they were the elite. Everyone in their group are very talented and have the best grades. At New Years Eve I messenge the 'friend' happy new year and he just ignored it and I know he sent everyone he knows a 'happy new year' cause we were very close and I know that he is very thoughtful and generous. Cause he used to be that to me.

I spent nights almost crying, I hated myself for not being good enough. I wasn't smart enough, not funny enough, not good enough. He made new friends that are better than me and left me behind. And on facebook they keep putting inside jokes on their walls. I looked up to my ' friend' cause I wanted to be like him, I am still envious of him and his group. Cause they were always the group that were laughing.

I wanted to go to the group and say ' sorry for my personality'.
I'm just confused. I need answers. why someone would do that. Why would someone end a friendship. Why would someone leave someone behind or shut someone out. I don't understand at least he can be friendly and still talk to me instead act like I don't exist.