no more facebook.. :( ???

[Jessi]

Hey guys, i will try to make this long story short.. I just moved to another city, i am 15. I lived in the previous one(paris) for 5 years. Im used to always moving and changing schools. But In Paris, iwas actually happy. I made friends in my new high school, i had allot of friends there, from my elementary school, and middle school.. Anyways well The school i went to was GV High school, i loved it! I had the best friends everrrr , i loved the way of teaching they had in that school.. Anyways, i met a guy, barely knew him but we had a connection! I've neever felt like that, even though i didint know him that much i like him a lot. Its been 2 months since my move. I feel depressed, alone and so sad. I just feel like i could've known him, couldve loved him or had something with him.. but now it's too late. Till this day i feel the same way.. I have no friends here in the school, even tho its been 2 months.People are rude. And i came in the middle of the year , wich is harder to make friends.. I had a life in paris, i was popular, chased by everyone to be my friend. Now i feel hopeless. My mom thnks its my fault i dont have friends because im not trying enough.. She wants me to chase people witch i completely REFUSE to do. In school at lunch i sit in the bathrooms. I wish someone can give me advice.. I feel it's over.. That part of happiness you get as a teenager. I miss his face,seeing it everyday.. i dont feel like that to anyone else. I miss loving school and the drama .. now i wake up everyday wishing i would get hit by a bus on my way there. I took off facebook , everytime i go on it i see my friends moving on and being happy. im such a sad person, i pity myself.

Please, dont be rude i just dont know who to speak to or ask advice to..