What should i do?? Daddy issues..?

[Abby]

So my dads a total douche. Left my mom at the hospital before I was even born. And I was always cool with not having a dad, my friends always complained and I don't know, I didn't feel like it was nessasary. But yesterday I found my dads learners permit. Its from like 20 years ago. So I googled him. And didn't get anything. I tried facebook and if he has one he's either an old man whose maried, has a daughter, and plays a lot of farmville, or some guy whose profile pic is a car. I don't know what to do. I've been bummed all day because I just want to know who he is. Hes the reason I'm alive. But this whole thing is making me sad and should I just stop??