teenage girl advice ?

[Erica]

I'm 15, very mature, and i dont believe i'll fall in love. I want it extremely badly, to share such an amazing connection with someone. Except the fact is, i like older guys who are mature.. I know when i go to university in a couple years it could happen, but i really dont even want to wait at all, i want to be in university now and meet a guy that i'll end up loving. Its almost as if its killing me inside, recently i've feel so lonely. I have friends, yes, but its not nearly the same. How long will i have to wait to atleast feel it once? its so rare to find a guy that is so confident with you that he'll sweep you off your feet unless if he's older. I dont want awkward relationships or just texting/social media. Will this take a long time to actually find a guy who will love me for who i am and will want to spend every second of his day with me as i would do the same? Is this even possible? I wont believe it until i've felt love, but really its all i want right now. Is this normal?