What should I do? Trust God or not?

[Yorkshire Lass]

It may be true that God is speaking to you, but on the other hand we can want something so intensely that our mind conjures up things we want to believe. I say this because I know two people who thought God had planned a marriage between them, and someone they dearly loved, giving 'signs' but it never came off - one of these friends died young, the other some year later married someone else- this was my sister who was always a well-balance person, not given to girlish imaginings but fell heavily in love for the first aged 33yrs..

Keep on believing, but if your heart's need is answered in a different way, be prepared for this also.

Make growing in faith and obedience to known GH God's will in your life, through Christ, be your main goal. God Bless you in a very difficult period.