I need help with this situation ?

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Since 2010 i feel in love with a guy named(Benjamin) .We met online on a website called myyearbook.I was 13 and he was 15 at the time .Before you say he's might be a fake.He isnt fake we talked on the phone and I saw his family profiles.So i don't believe he was a fake. We both felt so in love with eachother and we wanted to meet up somewhere safe.Anyways he wrote me a 4 page love letter email of how much he likes me and wantes to take it to the next level and all that romantic stuff .But something went wrong their was a girl that was trying to make me and him break up and trying to make things up.Well i end up not believing him and we stoped talking ever since then and till this day. He's already forgotten about me and doesn't know who i am anymore.I regret for not beliving him.I stalk him on Facebook and i made a fake Facebook account to see what he's been up to cause he wont accept my friend request . He hasn't had a girlfriend since then. I tried to add him on Facebook but he says that he doesn't remember me that im crazy and everything.I stalk him and im still in love with him .I've never been so in love with someone like him before .He's the hottest guy and sweetest guy I've ever meet (he's the boy of my dreams).But i wish i had meet him already but its never going to happened. He's 17 and im 16 now .I've went out with a guy after him but its not the same without him and i broke the other guys heart cause i didn't like him as much as i like Benjamin.All i want in this world is him and i think about him everyday and stalk him on Facebook . I know i sound crazy and psycho but I've tried many times to get him back but he doesnt seem to care and ignores me everytime. and im depressed about it .I just wish i can go back in time and fix everything. How can i move on ?or what can i do to take him back? its been 2 years since i haven't forgotten about him or moved on.I tried to go out with other guys at my school but its not the same and they act like jerks