am i obsessed with getting attention?

[J]

Well, you certainly have a thing about getting attention, but you're not a psychopath. However, from what it appears, you're not only trying to gain people's attention, you're also lying quite a lot (no offense), like when you say that you were acting high (that's a lie, too) or when you say that you hang out a lot when, in reality you're staying at home all the time.

As I said, you're not psycho, nor do you have a disorder, however, you certainly have an obsession which can become dangerous. From what I can guess, you love causing different situations and being a drama queen because that way, people will pay more attention to you and that will reward you psychologically. On one hand, that sounds like a normal need, however, on the other hand, it may also indicate an underlying reason for your constant desire to provoke and draw everyone's attention on you. In my opinion, this may happen because maybe you weren't given enough attention when you were young, or because you had a rough childhood, or even because your parents are divorced (I'm not sure on any of these scenarios, I'm just guessing here). Yet, whatever the cause, I believe that, as you may have realized yourself, your obsession isn't healthy and it is way beyond the natural need everyone has to get some attention.

Unfortunately, the truth is that people may view you as some kind of crazy person and to be honest, they have probably concluded this because of your attention-whoring. It's very sad to know that you're currently seeing seven (!) counselors, but you need to understand that if you want to change this, you must take drastic measures and fight against your temptations; if you let your obsession grow, it will eventually actually drive you crazy.

You need to focus on getting rid of your bad reputation. In order to do this, you must follow a set of steps to reduce or to eliminate completely (which is preferable) your attention whoring. First of, you need to deal with your drama queen tendencies. If you want to get attention at school, you can gain it otherwise and not by getting into lame fights and being considered a b 1 t c h afterwards for acting like an overreacting idiot. Get involved in school clubs (I'm guessing you're from the US so, in that case, you've got plenty of options), occupy yourself with a sport, learn a new language, hike or go out with friends, in other words, do anything except for being a drama queen. Also, if you are unable to control your need to attention whore on Facebook, then either delete it or control your urges and delete all the fake profiles you've made and refrain from creating new ones and pretending that your profile has been hacked.

Most importantly, remember that suicide is never an option, ESPECIALLY in your case (you don't have anything to complain since you appear to have brought this on yourself even though you had a seemingly perfect life, unless of course you had some issues during your childhood or something similar). Also, even if you kill yourself, then think about it: what will you have accomplished? Nothing! Your friends will just say that you killed yourself (probably one of the most derogatory things for someone to say if the person wasn't depressed) and then move on. Your parents will be the only people to mourn over your wrong choices. If you choose to live and stop your wrong behaviour, you'll get authentic attention from everyone. If you choose to commit suicide on the other hand, you will just make a fool of yourself.

Think about it.