Should i give up trying to ever look for a girl friend? Do you think i should blame my self for my rejection?

[Whistle]

First of all, don't blame her. Blaming her can only lead to hate and it's a waste of time. She has her preferences and you've been hurt by her beliefs. It's her loss if you are actually a good boyfriend and it's a good thing for you, too, because the way I see it, you can learn a lot of things from this.

Second, let's discuss your feelings for her. I'm not being an all-knowing person here, but did you really .like. her? You see, like can mean many things, as well as love. I won't talk much about this but I suggest before moving on, you explore your feelings for her again and try your best to analyze those feelings. What if you only liked her for her appearance or her superficiality when she was with her friends (now, hang on, don't react badly to this and don't deny it either.. before denying, think of it deeply and it's best to do it for a few days)? We can't really say we like a person from a distance and we can't really say we like a person when we're just seeing what he or she wants us to see. Sometimes what you see on the outside is a trick. They do it either to protect themselves because they have fears and worries or they do it for fun or both.

Third, your reason for thinking you won't find someone ever again. Do you really think this situation that happened to you is a valid reason for you not being able to find a girlfriend or a wife ever again? Come on. You can learn so many things from what just happened to you but you're seeing all those good experiences in a different perspective. There are a lot of people in this world and I do mean A LOT. But, you can't just rely on your other partner, you have to work on yourself, too... So this brings me to my last topic...

Work on yourself. I'm not saying to look for a Dermatologist and have her lather bleach all over you. I'm also not telling you to change your nose, your eyes, your lips, etc. "Work on yourself" means learning to love yourself so you won't have to rely on a person to comfort you on times when your insecurities are filling you up. "Work on yourself" means learning from each of your mistakes and looking at them from a good point of view. "Work on yourself" means bettering yourself emotionally and mentally. I'm not saying stop looking for a girl now. By all means, go look for a girl. Having break-ups from relationships that started out good or from chaotic relationships can help you grow to a better person. You see, jumping into a relationship when you have so many insecurities with yourself or problems will cause the relationship to break. When you've had relationship after relationship and looked at every problem you had with your girlfriend with an open mind, you'll learn so many things. So, don't rush. In fact, enjoy your youth. It's never too late and there are a lot of women out there. Rushing into one right now when your heart and mind is obviously weak enough to even just let themselves get affected by this girl will be bad for you and your soon-to-be girlfriend. Just go with the flow. If you do enter a relationship, go with it with an open mind and make sure you truly know the girl for who she is, not for who she appears to be outside so you also truly know your feelings.