I've been feeling unhappy in school?

[Crystal Hart]

Sorry I didn't mean for it to be this long, I guess a lot of it is just venting but words of support would be nice.

I'm 15. I'm not that great at making friends. All the friends that I have that I'm close with and get along with really well don't go to my school, plus they're all crazy. I know that sounds harsh and I love them but I always have to worry because they're always getting arrested and doing crazy **** like cocaine and whatnot. I smoke and drink sometimes but it's completely different, I'm always "the responsible one" (aka the boring one). At school the only friends I made are totally different, they're nice people and all but it's hard to relate to them cause they're so sheltered. To be honest I don't really tell them about all the crazy stuff on the weekends (not that they've ever asked) cause they're kind of judgmental about that sort of stuff.
A lot of people at my school think I'm extremely straight-edge I guess cause of the people I hang out with and the fact that I'm quiet and do well in school. I spend a lot of time studying, stressed out either worrying about school or my friends. Getting good grades doesn't even make me happy. The only reason I continue working so hard in school is cause it's the only thing I'm good for.
I'm pretty self conscious nowadays and I just want to be carefree like I used to, before I had to start visiting my friends in mental hospitals, promises broken about cocaine, have friends be barely conscious cause they haven't eaten for too long, and wallow all the time about how no guy would ever want to f*ck me.

[Samantha]

If you want to be happy, then do what MAKES you happy! Stop talking to the bad friends, because all they are doing is holding you back. Find something you like to do (hike, paint,sing...etc) and just do it. Join a club so you can meet new people. More importantly SOCIALIZE! Don't expect friends if you're not putting an effort into finding them. Also don't "wallow" on the fact that you think no one wants to have sex with you. YOU'RE 15. Live your life before even thinking about sex, because with sex comes responsibility. Just focus on school, yourself and your happiness. Nothing else matters!

[D.C]

First off, quit smoking and drinkin, i know i sound cliche, but trust me, you'll feel a little bit better. Make a list of things that make you, you; and the things in life that keep you going and that you love with you 24/7. Like, music, gaming, family, relationships, etc. Try joining clubs or the wrestling team to practice out your social skills, social media is good practice. Friends will come in no time, people love having friends, and its been proven The friends you get, become their friend's friend. Get your extreme friends some help and into rehab, and tell them "You cant be my friend if you continue abusing your life like this, please, get some help." Smile alot to, even if its fake, it attracts people to you, then sooner than later, that 'fake' smile, will become a real one