why do i torture myself?

[Reine]

So sorry to ear that, I know how you must fell, separations is never easy , specially after giving him 20 best years of your life he just gets up and leaves you.

If I have an advise to give is one block him of your face book that way if you don't know what he's doing, it will make the healing process easier, I know that you will never forget him, but you need to forgive him and try to take care of yourself, have new hobies and meet new people's you never know what yoy need could be just around the corner, may god gives you all the strength you need to stand up again my heart goes to you, I hope 7 could of help.