WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME...DID HE EVEN LOVE ME AT ALL?

[883]

Ok so my crush is also my first cousin. His dad nad my mo are siblings. Im muslim and in my religion cousins can get married...I love my cousin so much and we've been getting along so well thes past few months. We grew up apart so thats probably the reason we fell for each other so fast. hes been acting very weird and i asked him whats up and he said hes just in a bad mood. So i told him ill leave him alone and he said sorry since that he didnt say much. Than on monday i texted him saying whats up with him why does he hate me now and it took him hours just to reply. He said he doesnt hate me and he can never hate me.

So i asked him so why has he been avoiding me and he said he cant explain it. I asked him does he still love me and he said "i cant explain it but we cant be together and i still care about u...your my cousin i dont wanna lose u" And he said he was sorry. I told him to keep shis sorry i dont need his pity and that i dont wanna talk to him again. I still love him alot and i cant believe he would break my heart like that. No one knows about us except my aunt who i just told a few mintutes ago cuz i was so sad and had no one to talk to...

Yesterday he blocked me on whatsapp and today he deleted me on fb....I keep messaging him and calling him but he just wont say anything to me...I hink my aunt talk to him and he feels embarrassed. Please help what should I do I still love him

[Roham]

See firstly your name is very very beautiful..secondly even am in love and its my first time so i can undrstand how u might be feeling by the thought that u r on the edge of loosing ur love.s best wishes from my side.See marriages r made in heaven and u being a muslima urself should understand that GOD decides partner for everyone and the partner HE decides are the most suitable for him or her..so if u cant get ur cousin then u might feel very sad and heartbreaking..but who knows that ur actual man is still waiting for u and will give u all sorts of love..just keep offering your namaz and rather then asking Allah to have ur cousin ask HIM to provide the best man for you
See i really admire and love you all muslim girls..u all r very humble, modest and soft at heart and deserves the best in life..these will be ur reward!
by the way do u wear burqa??u can add me and would like if mail me..roham.mose@yahoo.com
i'll be happy if u need any other futher suggestions from me..see u soon
ALLAH hafiz and take care