Is this just a coincidence or is this about ME?

[How]

I have this friend...we have a really confusing relationship kinda...Because of me and my insecurities...basically when I feel insecure I ignore everyone...I used to ignore her a lot, treat her awkwardly and weird but not because I don't like her, just because I didn't want to be looked at. I have a big issue with being around people when I feel ugly.

Ever since we first met 2 years ago she was one of those extremely gorgeous girls but she was super nice and friendly to me, always stared at me, always complimented me, said hi in the halls, invited me to work in her groups, smiled at me, etc. But I never really reciprocated because I was too caught up in my own issues and insecurities, had low self esteem, ignored her and everyone...One time she had walked into class and sat down, smiled at me, and was staring at me for about 15 seconds, waiting for me to finish talking to the person I was talking to. But I pretended not to notice, then when I finished talking to the girl, she was still staring, but I was pretending to read something on this paper I was holding. Then she just sighed and turned around, stayed quiet the rest of class.

Sometimes she would walk kinda slow in the hallways after class as if she were waiting for me, but I'd walk even slower because I didn't want to be alone with her and have her notice how ugly my flaws really make me. I was always super talkative around other people in class, but really awkward with her. I know she noticed, because she would always watch me when I talked to people and then get quiet, start playing with her nails or something as if she were thinking about something.

And so many other times I treated her like sh*t...I feel so bad! I'm surprised she still likes me. She's very forgiving.

But anyways lately we haven't talked much in awhile but when she sees me in the halls she's always like "Hey [my name]!" and smiles...I noticed on days when I don't really talk to her, don't look at her in class (we don't sit together, assigned seats) she posts, retweets, and likes sad things on Facebook and twitter...like "today was horrible" "is this ever going to change?" "i feel like crying" "i'm tired of this" "lately I've been feeling so depressed" And I feel for some reason like they're about ME maybe. And on days when I talk to her, she's seems happier and posts/likes/tweets happy and encouraging things.

Is this just a coincidence?
But I'm a girl too...

[Kiel]

Dude hole in one


I think she's trying to give you a hand

Tip: Make her laugh once and a while

[Hello]

If you like her, then put on your game face and talk to her at school. It doesnt matter if the entire school sees you do it, because trust me, she may be the person you will be on one knee for.

[Anya]

Don't ignore her for your looks! She seems like a really nice girl and I'm sure she won't judge. I know you feel insecure and stuff but it's very selfish to hurt someone else for your own problems. I think she's tweeting and posting things about you. Try to be more friendly with her and don't ignore her Even if she posts those things for something else I'm sure she'll appreciate it if you try and make her happy!

[alberto]

Woah hahahahaha! You sound JUST like me. I sorta do the same things to some people and some things exactly how you said lol. Anyway, unfortunately yes I do think it's about you. Since I'm very shy, timid, and insecure (at times, with some people) people tend to think I'm just rude and don't care about the people who are around me; but really that's not true at all. She probably thinks the same, she probably thinks you think she's nothing or not worth your attention. Who knows what she's going through inside herself or at home. Try and talk to her, use the fact that she obviously likes you as a friend/acquaintance and try to be confident about yourself. Almost ALWAYS the flaws that people see about themselves are exaggerated, I'm sure you look fine. Talk to her! Be friendly! Hope I helped.