Do you think I might need hospitalization?

[ProudMomma]

Omg! What's wrong with your mom & your peers?? You wouldn't be feeling half of this if it wasn't for them. I don't agree with bullying at all & how immature of the school staff to talk about you, a student! Let me give you the best advice anyone has ever given me. Go away. Far away from your family, far away from your home, far away from your friends. Start new. Start happy. You don't need these people bringing you down. The things I think you need to see a doctor about are your bipolar & sleeping problems. Everything else should go away when those horrible people stop. I know you're very young but just get out the second you have a chance. I'm not saying leave your family & friends scared sick & run away & I don't want you to be homeless. Just ready yourself, prepare to leave & when the time is right just say your goodbyes & drop this life. GO BE HAPPY because no matter what anyone tells you, you deserve to be happy. No one has the right to talk down on you or even take pictures of you behind your back! Delete your Facebook. Ignore them & just know you're getting out. Know that it'll all be over soon. Not by ending your life but by finally being free one day. I don't know if you believe in God or not but he would never turn his back on you no matter what. Just wait. Your time WILL come & everything will be better & you'll walk away with your head held high. Don't give up. You are loved. I promise.

[lifeslikethat]

I don't know if you need to be hospitalized, or just plugged into some services such as a psychiatrist and perhaps a mental health counselor. You do need some professional help though. They will ask you a bunch of questions in the ER and that will help them determine whether or not you get admitted. Things like bipolar disorder need treatment and treatment can make a big difference. I remember being a suicidal wreck in the ER, they gave me Zyprexa and I was able to go home with no suicidal thoughts. I have type 2 bipolar disorder. Meds aren't perfect, but it sure beats being suicidal.

I know the wall is high, but unless and until you reach out for help you'll be stuck where you are. And your parent's will find out, but there are worse things. At least then you won't have to hide anymore, and they may surprise you. When I was a teenager I didn't get help, but my case is more mild than yours, it wasn't until I was in University I sought out help. I didn't tell my parent's until I was 30, and they were understanding and are a good support. I wish I would have told them sooner but I was ashamed and scared of what they'd say.

Take care best you can and seek out help. The Kids help phone is a good service 1(800) 668-6868. They will be able to talk more to you and they will let you know if you should seek out emergency help. If you think you are going to commit suicide call 911.