I didn't get very many responses so Christians please help?

[Neat Guy]

this is the medicine that you need my friend.
1-Increase your church attendance.
2-Increase your Bible study time and buy a New american standard with a Strong's Concordance.
3-Start a devotion too the holy Rosary.

Jesus Christ

[Zwise]

I'm a little troubled by your conflicting desires to Be Normal and feeling you are denying God by not testifying of them at every opportunity. This is not a healthy condition for spiritual development. It comes, I fear, by means of misapplied doctrines, either in how they are taught or how you receive them.

Either way, it is something that ought to be brought up and discussed among those who would shepherd you. While bearing testimony in social media might seem to be desirable at times, I'm sure you're discovering that there are many about who do not appreciate your zeal in these things and question your sanity. What you feel in your love of God sounds very close to being twitterpated much like Bambi and his friends of Disney fame. You are becoming so close to it and so emotional you cannot see logic and truth.

But at this stage in life I would encourage you to expand your horizons a bit to take a broader view of the world around you. There are many people in need who need to feel the love of God in their lives. Social media for the most part is a total waste, a playground for unbelievers. Get out and about in your community more to seek out service opportunities that minister directly to real people. Maybe your church has some kind of a charity or outreach program or members who participate in things like meals on wheels, local soup kitchens, homeless shelters or the like.

Since you are still young but old enough to be free and responsible you should use this time to let your own light shine far and wide and gain experience in as many service agencies as possible that you might discover possible hidden talents and skills, likes and dislikes. Allow the Lord to work to open doors of opportunity in your behalf and direct your steps for good as you seek to become a tool in his hands as an example of his ministry among men. Expand your church horizons as well to find those in genuine need as well as those who can shepherd you in training and development of spiritual as well as practical life skills.

As you do these things and look for practical application of God's spirit in your live, your perception of him may change. Continue to grow in faith by daily scripture study and applied service and you'll find the great joy and happiness that comes to those who sincerely serve in the Lord's cause.
Bless you.