How do I know if I'm at risk of re developing mental problems?

[Sam]

I have taken a month of seclusion to find my center. No pot, no booze, no friends, television, fast food, social media etc.

I have been engaging in daily meditation, exercise, reading, writing and schoolwork and it's all going quite swimmingly other then a few mild mood swings.

I was diagnosed with manic depression and ADD when I was an adolescent and was heavy into drugs; upon my own study lately I've been quite keen that I used to have a personality disorder. Those days have passed but I'm still noticing a small tick; a negative twist in some days that is inexplicable (that is what inspired me to do this "cleanse", if you will, in the first place).

My mood and focus have vastly improved but my thoughts have bad some interesting effects on the way I'm driven. Firstly, my impulsivity is on the rise proportional to my heightening mood, and I have had some impulsive thoughts that are very hard to control against my actions. These things could get me in alot of trouble (For example I find my math teacher very attractive and it took every ounce of willpower to not be suggestive). Lastly I am having thoughts that drive my emotions against the people that I love; now that I'm viewing them in a different light, I have a feeling my attitude and my actions toward them are going to change, and not always necessarily for the better. I have thoughts of being rash against them in difficult situations that for me are seemingly easy and the idea of ignoring a few of them and praising others is becoming more appealing. It's like I can't find a good balance.

I thought dropping all of these worldly things out for just a month would make the ability to control my Behavior easier, and so it turns out the opposite is true. Am I at risk of falling back into negative behavior and thus back into an emotional slump? Or are these normal impulses that I'm just going to learn have to learn how to fight?

The longer the reply and the more informed the opinion the better; I'd like to read all of your experience if you are willing to share it as well. Any opinion is a good one to me, please help, thanks so much for your time

[Jess]

Okay, most of the time when I read these things people don't know how to write proper English, so let me first of all give you props for sounding intelligent.

Definitely stay away from the drugs - you sound like someone who can't just have one experience and let it go. If you try it once, you'll definitely fall back into that routine, so stay clean.

I don't know if your thoughts will go away - if you find someone attractive, you'll find them attractive. So far you've been able to control your impulses, so good for you! You might feel some sort of anxiety right before you act on impulse, so maybe there's something you can do in order to "distract" yourself. I personally think listening to relaxing music is great, but obviously you can't do that in the middle of class. Maybe look up on YouTube relaxation breathing techniques. I'm not sure if this is the best solution for impulsiveness, but I know it's good for anxiety. The point is, if you're feeling impulsive, you need to distract yourself from it.

It's great that you've turned yourself away from negative things, but don't tune out your friends too much. If they're a bad influence, then find new friends, or stick to the ones who support you.

I'm not sure if you've looked into therapy. Considering the fact you were diagnosed with something probably means you've seen a psychiatrist or some sort of doctor, but that probably just means you're on medication or were considering it. Make sure you don't just pop a pill and expect it to work.

Look into therapy. They have better advice than anyone on Yahoo answers does. I can say that I was a psychology major in school and I've met all sorts of people with different mental health issues, but I'm not a professional.